P.S. I still love you

Chapter Twenty

Noel's POV

"I can't look at it," I whisper to Dani.

Dani goes to check it and says "OMG! I'm gonna spoil him or her."

OMG. How the heck am I going to tell Zayn I'm pregnant. It'll ruin his career. I know he's not ready for a child. I sit down against the wall hugging my knees and cry. Dani comforts me.

"What do I do," I ask her through my tears.

"Babe, you have options," she says.

"Abortion," I snap.

I couldn't kill another life. I wouldn't be able to live with myself and I know Zayn wouldn't like that idea.

"Or adoption," she says.

"I can't do that. I can't kill my own child and I can't handle knowing I have a child somewhere. I wouldn't be able to live with myself," I say crying even harder.

"Noel... You don't have to do his on your own. I'll always be by your side and I know for a fact the boys won't leave you," she says giving me a sad smile.

"How am I gonna tell Zayn," I ask scared.

"Babe, he'll understand. He loves you and I know he won't leave you," she says reassuringly.

"I just don't know," I say.

"Why don't we go see Liam," she suggests.

"Okay," I answer.

I wash my face and fix myself to look decent. I look one last time at all 5 tests. They all say positive.

"I can't believe I'm gonna be a mother," I say silently to myself.

"You ready, babe," Dani calls from the sitting area.

"Just one sec," I call back.

I gather all my belongings and walk to the siting area.

"Ready," I say.

We walk out the door and to the elevator. Dani presses the button and we wait patiently. It's really quiet between us.

"Dani," I ask bringing her back to reality as we walk to our cars.

"Yes," she replies.

"I'm scared," I say frightened.

"Don't be babe. You'll be a great mom," she says reassuringly.

We drive in separate cars to Liam's flat.

We walk in to find Liam, Niall and Harry talking.

"Hey babe," Liam says smiling to Danielle.

"Hey," she says back.

"Hey Noelly," Liam says hugging me.

"Hey," I say sitting down by Niall.

"Did we catch you at a wrong time," Danielle asks.

"Nope. We were just talking about the interview tomorrow," Niall answers.

"So, could we talk to Liam... Alone," Danielle says.

"Sure thing," Harry says while getting up.

"Bye guys," Niall and Harry say in unison.

"What's up," Liam asks concerned.

"Should I tell him or you," Danielle asks me.

"You," I say barely a whisper. I can't even talk. There's a lump in my throat.