SILHOUETTE

Chapter 16 [M]

Trigger Warning: mature for sexual content etc

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His office was pitch black due to the curtains. He flicked on the light watching as Simone sat on his desk. Sure, they teased here and there but he didn't think she would be so forward to want to continue here. He purposely took his sweet time , making the slowest walk to her. He took in every stolen glance and admired  his view along the way.

"Would you pick up the pace!" She spoke snappily with a light giggle.

"I like to take my time. Savor the moment of you desperately needing me to fix your problem."  Jordan expressed.

"Desperately is a stretch for sure and it's a problem you, Jordan Baker created."

"I don't know if I should take all the blame, you look ready to risk to all to me." He stood in between her legs, rubbing her thighs.

"I could say the same thing about you." She remarked running her fingers across his.

"Are you sure this is what you want?"

Even if they were teasing each other , he was still serious. He wanted to make sure she wasn't rushing herself. He was more than willing to  give her time if she needed it. However, it was clear that the time was up but he didn't want her regretting this moment.

"This isn't my first rodeo Jordan. I know why you are asking but yes, finish. what. you. started." She poked him in the chest with each word.

"Oh, I can finish. Don't worry about that. I just don't want you to feel like I am rushing things or this relationship is purely sex." He admitted.

"There it is."

"There what is?"

"You've never had a serious relationship that wasn't beyond sex and that along with what happened has made you extremely cautious. You have never been in love before? By all means correct me if I am wrong." She continued playing with his hands. She liked his hands, she couldn't help it.

"What? I've had relationships that..." Jordan paused.

"Honesty." Simone reminded him of his pact.

"Okay so I have had relationships that I thought had potential and it turns out that's not what I wanted at the time so no, I haven't been in love."

"Not even with Layla?" She rose a brow.

"Sure, I loved Layla but platonically. It was more like ... say it to appease the other person but you don't mean it."

Well damn. She wanted honesty so she got it.

"So you never said I love you to any female other than your mom and Liv? I find that hard to believe."

"Yeah well... no woman or girl has ever made me feel like that I guess." Jordan shrugged with his mouth not seeing the bigger picture.

"Feel like what?" She challenged

"Feel like... I was given the same energy I gave them. It always felt one sided. Either I liked them too much or they liked  me too much. It was never equal. It never felt like some 90s rom com where I think about them all the time and want to see them all the time you know. It never felt like they invaded my dreams and I was completely myself around them." He scratched his face knowing it sounded corny and ridiculous.

It was a regular Tuesday. There was no big plans but it felt like a moment. Maybe, she realized it in this moment. The more she thought about it, the more she was sure. It was a scary feeling - one that she was positive would never happen so soon. She didn't want to feel like a dumbass if he was only going to say it because it was what she wanted to hear.