Lies in the Past (Alimentation Series #2)

Chapter 22

We were both panting hard when we stopped kissing. I'm still dizzy and my eyes are still closed because I feel exhausted from the long time we kissed. I could hear my crazy and loud heartbeat. Harminder rolled his body on the bed, beside me, while catching back his breath.

Maya-maya ay sabay kaming natawa. I don't know why, and how, but we laughed in chorus just after we savoured each other's mouth, like it was the funniest thing ever. He slowly grabbed my hand that was placed on the bed and intertwined our fingers. His hand was warm against mine. It's comforting me.

"Your lips might get swollen tomorrow," hinihingal pa rin niyang sabi. Kinapa ko ang labi ko gamit ang isa ko pang kamay. "I bite you too much," he added, so much aware of what he have done.

Mamamaga nga siguro itong labi ko kinabukasan. I can't blame him. If I am eager for him, it is not surprising that he is more eager. He pecked my lips and it was the first time I felt this way; happy at the same time nangangalay ang panga.

I don't know how long we kissed until we both got tired. The only rest we had earlier was when we got some fresh air because we ran out of breath. Pero sandali lang dahil babalik na naman ang labi niya sa akin at magbabakbakan ulit kami.

"Sa 'yo rin baka mamaga." Nakangisi kong sinabi. I'm sure I bit him a few times too. Quite hard. "I like the kiss," dire-diretso kong sinabi. "And I like you more, too."

I  suddenly heard his groan. Nilingon ko siya at nakita ang ngiti niya habang mariing nakapikit ang kanyang mga mata. I felt even more happy when I felt his happiness. We are in the middle of the night and both feel good. My heart was filled with so much complacence.

"Heartwarming. I don't understand why my heart beats so fast." I felt his hand tightening on mine. His smile never fade. "It's like it's illegal to feel so happy."

Tumagilid ako sa pagkakahiga pero nakatitig pa rin sa kaniya. "It feels illegal to like a friend," I said, matter of fact. Kahit masaya ako ngayon, narito pa rin ang pangamba sa dibdib ko. And even I am now aware of his true feelings for me, there's this strange sensation in my chest. "Why did you like me, Harminder?" I asked using my small voice.

"I tried to stop it, because I knew it wasn't a good idea to like someone who only see me as a friend, but I couldn't restraint it. I can't stop myself from wanting you," mahina niyang sagot. "Until I want you more than I wanted you before. I'm sorry."

"Why are you saying sorry?"

"Because I was unable to resist you." Tumagilid din siya sa pagkakahiga at ngayon ay magkaharap na kami, nakatitig sa isa't isa at parehong may ngiti sa labi. "I don't even know when it started, and how. It seems really weird to had my heart beating loudly whenever I'm with you." He was citing every words with so much tenderness.

My heart is beating so loudly as I hear his confession. Harminder looked very sincere and certain while staring at me, like he wanted me to understand every thing he was up to say, that I should listen carefully because our next chapter depends on it.

Malalim ang pinakawalan niyang buntong hininga. "I was unfamiliar with this stuff; heart beating fast, having all the possible chills while staring at your face, or at least just by seeing you, and I was really happy when you're talking to me and telling random stories. But I sooner realized that I am feeling those weird things because I like you. And it was not easy to admit the truth."

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko, dahil sa totoo lang, ganoon din ako sa kaniya noong una. I also felt how he felt for me before, so I know how hard it is to admit the truth to yourself. There was before the thought that I am not precise enough about my feelings, that maybe my heart is just deceiving me, or I'm just too flustered by what he was doing for me.