"Shunga!" sigaw ni Rhianna after she got to know that I will not act again to focus on my studies and it's been decided.
She's staring at me like I did something really unacceptable, when all I did was chose myself this time. Ngumuso ako sa kaniya.
"Boo, really? Are you sure?"
"I wasn't able to attend all my classes araw-araw dahil may shooting. I told my parents about it and of course, my Mom was not satisfied with my decision," I blurted out a sigh. "I'm sure about this."
They don't know how tired I was. Ayaw ko na rin talaga. I got bullied at palagi akong nagtitiis dahil iyon ang sinasabi sa akin ng manager ko kahit minsan sobra na.
My mental health was not getting healthier and I was more becoming uncomfortable with what I'm doing dahil pakiramdam ko show business is not meant for me.
Tumitig siya na para bang may naiisip pa siyang isang dahilan kung bakit ako nagdesisyon ng ganito. I laid down the bed to seek rest, something I couldn't have for the past weeks. I was so busy and eager to finish the shoot at the same time.
I can't imagine another month with Liza. She was so full of herself, I don't like it. Madalas niya akong minamaliit dahil sa kumalat na video noon sa social media platforms. Isang linggo din akong naging mainit sa mata ng netizens.
Ayaw ko nang makasama siya dahil she's been belittling me dati pa. Minsan nawawalan na ako ng confidence because of her thoughtless insults and jokes.
"Were you still embarrassed because of what happened months ago? Does that affect your decision to quit acting? I thought you love show business, boo?"
Napadilat ako bigla. Bahagya akong nakaramdam muli ng pagkapahiya matapos maalala ang dahilan kung bakit pinagbawalan ako ni Daddy na lumapit muli kay Kent.
They forbade me to come close to him again after they've watched the video of me, being humiliated by the man they thought all along good. Hindi nila kinaya ang ginawa nito sa akin dahil they are expecting something nice from Kent.
My parents didn't expect him to treat me the other way around, and it was disappointing that he did.
Siyempre pinaglaban ko noong una, accepting and claiming all the blame kasi I know naman na it was primarily my fault. Ako ang gumawa ng sarili kong kahihiyan nang gabing iyon. Kent was not just happy to see me, tapos gumawa pa ng kahihiyan sa mismong birthday party niya.
I couldn't do anything but stay away dahil hindi rin naman ako pinakinggan ng mga magulang ko noong nagpaliwanag ako sa kanila.
"Hindi, ah. Nakalimutan ko na nga iyon. Gusto ko na lang talaga mag-focus muna sa study ko."
"Are you planning to go back on being Kent's tail? I'm telling you, Lemonade, don't you ever come close to that asshole again!"
Kahit si Rhianna ay galit sa kaniya. Nag-trending kasi ang video namin noon sa birthday party niya, the one I was being humiliated while soaking wet. Ako lang naman ang target ng basher dahil napahiya, pero ang napansin ng mga malalapit sa akin ay si Kent.
They had been telling me that he shouldn't have said those words to me. Nakakahiya dahil magkaibigan pa naman ang magulang namin, ngayon ay malabo na sina Mommy at Tita Annabelle pagkatapos noon.
Hindi ko naman ginustong maging komplikado ang sa kanila. I can't believe their friendship will get ruined one day all because of me, and my thoughtless decision. I wasn't invited at sana nga ay hindi na lang ako nagpunta para hindi na nangyari ang bagay na pinagsisisihan ko until now.
"Hindi na ako lalapit," sabi ko kahit ang totoo ay ilang beses ko na rin iyong nasabi. I can't help it dahil siyempre, I like him. I don't know if Kent's even aware of it. "Hindi na, boo."
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