Lies in the Past (Alimentation Series #2)

Chapter 30

Warning: R-18

Mahabang katahimikan ang namayani. I don't even know if I should laugh at Radish's statement. He really hates Nectarine Santivañez that much? At parang hindi niya mapapalagpas kapag nababanggit ang pangalan nito sa harapan niya.

Dexter's face soured. Sandali niya lang sinulyapan si Radish na mukhang masama ang loob bago napatingin muli kay Kent. He was always scared for his safety, but now, Dexter have seemed to gathered all his senses back.

I am aware that Macy has been looking for the man's personation. Ang hindi ko alam ay nakikipag-tulungan pala sa kaniya sina Radish and Dexter. They are doing their part as Kent's friends, pero ang isa ay puro sarili lang niya ang iniisip.

"Bakit niyo ba ako pinagtutulungan?" Kalmado na si Kent ngayon. Mariing nakaupo at mas namumula ang mga mata.

"Hindi ka namin pinagtutulungan," mariing sagot ni Dexter. "We just want you to understand the situation, Kent. And I want you to stop your craziness!"

"I'm not crazy, for fucking's sake!" Pumalag siya at marahas na tumayo. Isa-isa niya kaming tiningnan, nagbabaga na naman ang mga mata. "Look, listen. I love Shakeera. You don't fucking know how much I love her and hearing her while refusing me was painful for me! I wanted her to see that I am willing to change myself for her."

"Okay, you fucking love her. And can you fucking see yourself now? You looked pathetic. And Kent, don't you really know when to fucking stop? Ayaw na sa 'yo noong tao, 'di ba? When will you stop hurting yourself?" Tuwid na nakatayo si Radish sa kanyang harapan. Pareho silang matangkad. But the tallest amongst them all is currently holding my hand.

Siguro ganito talaga si Harminder. Noong halos mag-away sina Radish at Kent sa party ni Macy, isang beses lang siyang umawat at hindi niya pinatulan ang pag-aaway ng dalawa. He was more concerned that Macy's party was ruined because of his friends. I suddenly realized that I couldn't really make him change because he has his own personality that cannot be changed. Kasi ito at ganito siya.

It was really my fault. And I should apologize for being unreasonable.

"Stop na, Kent. Huwag mo nang pahirapan 'yong tao. Huwag mo na siya lalong pahirapan. Can you really stand seeing your love ones suffering because of you?" Dexter was holding Kent's shoulder, almost sounded like begging. "You shouldn't love in a toxic way."

We watched Kent as he slowly dropped himself on the chair. He seems weak. Tinakpan niya ang mga mata gamit ang kanyang kamay. I had never seen him being like this before.

"Shakeera won't be sexually harassed if you didn't force her to talk to you. And it left her to a fucking misery." Malalim ang pinakawalan ni Dexter na buntong hininga. "Tama na, pakiusap. Tama na, Kent."

"I will stop now," he said. "Hindi ko na siya pupuntahan at lalapitan. I'll apologize."

Mabilis akong tumayo dahil wala naman akong balak na sobrang magtagal pa roon. Sandali ko pa silang tiningnan, lalo na si Kent. That's the only thing I wanted to hear from him. Iyon lang ang mga salitang ipinunta ko rito.

Umangat ang kilay ko. "Just make sure, Kent. You don't know how she feels right now. At ang simpleng hindi mo paglapit at pagpapakita sa kaniya ay malaking bagay na."

Kent is making things more worst and hard for Shakeera. Whether he really feels love for my friend, I can't answer that. I don't know if that's true, or he just wants to stand for what he believes. I personally know only one thing: when you love someone, you won't let them suffer because of you.

I don't know Kent's true feelings. I don't know anything about that because he is the only one who knows how he really feels for Shakeera. But after what happened, why does he still have the courage to think about the second chance he wants? Hindi man lang ba niya napansin na nahihirapan na si Shakeera?