Tragic Harmony

Chapter Thirty Eight

That’s it I was going to die. I was going to see my mom again. I was never going to see Luke, Ryan, Emma, and most importantly Jason ever again, ever. Through all my thoughts I hadn’t even realized someone screaming. Then I stopped. What the hell?

“ALI! NO!” I felt someone grabbing onto my hand and I was dangling looking up into emerald eyes. He pulled me up with his very muscular arms and into his body. He wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my back.

“Ali, what the hell?!”

I Ignored him and just sobbed. “Why.” I sobbed into his chest.

“Because I can’t let you just give up Ali!” I heard his voice crack. “How could you just do that! Do you have any idea how much Emma would miss you? And Ryan? And LUKE!?”

“No…They wouldn’t care! I’m just a bother to everyone!” I screamed. “I’m just a ugly whore! Nobody wants me!”

“Ali!” Jason grabbed my shoulders. “Ali I want you! I care about you! Uhg! You have NO idea how much I like you! ALI! I LOVE YOU!” He yelled letting a tear drop down his face.

I just stared at him as tears ran down my face. The world stopped.  “I love you too….” I whispered. “I’m so sorry! I’m sorry!” I sobbed and he pulled me close to him.

We sat like that for what felt like hours. I finally stopped sobbing and pulled away to look at him. He just had a look of concern, anger, and just a mix of emotions all over his face.

 “Ali…”

“I didn’t know what else to do.” I whispered. “People…they were saying awful things.”

“So you rather die than talk to me about it? I thought you trusted me.”

“No Jason, I wanted to but you were gone all week and the comments just kept getting worse and I … I just couldn’t take it anymore.”

“Ali, I will do anything you want to make you happy, I will beat anyone up or let you go and be with Luke, or Noah I just want you to be happy, Ali. I love you, and all I want is you to be happy. I want you to trust that I will do anything to make this better.”

“Jason, thank you.” I said standing up. “I’m going to find Luke and apologize.” I turned around a smirk playing on my face but he couldn’t see it.

“okay.” He finally said.

I turned around from walking away and just stared at him. “Seriously?! You’re not even gonna try to fight for me?”

“What?”

I ran back over to him and jumped on him wrapping my legs around his waist. “I don’t want anyone else Jason! I want you!”

“I love you Ali.”

“I love you too.” I whispered lightly kissing him.

I opened my mouth to deepen the kiss but he pulled away.

“What?”

“That was really mean, what you did. I thought you didn’t trust me and were going to leave me.”

“I’m sorry, I trust you Jason, I trust you with my life. I just want everyone to disappear. I can’t deal with these comments about… anything, anymore. I cant do it. Jumping would have been so easy.”

“I know I’m so sorry, I should never had brought you out in public with me.”

“No. Then we wouldn’t be where we are today.”

“You mean me pulling you back onto the roof after you tried to jump off?”

“No, silly, I mean I wouldn’t be able to do this.”

I stood on my tip toes wrapping my arms around his neck and kissing him intertwining my fingers in his hair. He opened his mouth letting me deepen the kiss and take control but he quickly gained control of the kiss and lifted me up onto him again wrapping his hands around my waist and pulling me closer to him. We broke apart for a minute to catch our breath; he leaned his fore head against mine and just stared into my eyes. We didn’t notice there was someone behind us until we heard someone clear their throat. We turned around to see the principle standing behind us with a disapproving look.

“Oh my god, principle Kelly!”

“You two my office now!”

Jason put me down and we walked behind the principle into her office.

“Mrs. Kelly, I can-“ she cut me off before I could say another word.

“You two should be ashamed, during school hours? How stupid could you be?” she said smiling now.

“Huh?”

“I’ve heard all the rumors going around so I’m cutting you two a break. I am sorry for the way people have been treating you. I will try my best to get it to stop.”

“Thank you?” I said questionably

“You’re welcome, now no more going on the roof for secret make out sessions deal?”

“Deal.” We both said simultaneously “Thank you so much.”

We walked out of the office. “Im taking you home.” Jason said pulling me towards the front door.

“Your not going to tell Emma are you?” I said feeling my stomach drop.

He cupped my cheek in his hand. “Ali I have to tell Emma. Either I am or you are going to. Ali I just watched you try to kill yourself im not taking in chances.”

I Flinched at his words. I did just try to kill myself… I started to cry again. How stupid was I? “Im so stupid! I was going to leave everyone I loved.”

He pulled me into a hug. “Its okay Ali. You DIDN’T do it. That’s what matters.”

He drove me home and walked into the house with me. He handed me the phone. “Tell Emma to come home. You need to talk to her.”

I nodded. The phone rang once before he answered. “Hey Sweetie. Is everything okay.”

“No. Can you come home please?”

“Oh God Ali. What happened? Im on my way.”

I hung up and sat on the couch with my head in my hands  Jason rubbed my back. I stiffened when I heard the front door opened.

Emma walked in the room and sat on the coffe table in front of me. “Ali what happened.” She eyed Jason.

“Emma, I…I just…tried…” I let out a sob and looked at Jason.

He sighed. “I found her rumping of the schools roof. If I didn’t get there in time….”

Emma gasped. “Ali!” She pulled me into a hug. “Oh God Ali! Why would you do that!”

I just sobbed. Jason continued. “There were some rumors going on at school…about Ali and her mom. Fans aren’t happy about her and I dating.”

“Oh gosh Ali. Why didn’t you talk to me?”

“Im so sorry.” I said through the tears.

Emma and Jason stayed with me for the rest of the day. The rest of the weekend they didn’t let me out of their site. I knew they were worried about me but I knew what I did was a mistake. I should never have tried to kill myself.

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She lives! tee hee. I love Jason so much....Why cant i have him? GR

THanks for reading! I love you all!

-Ashy