Tragic Harmony

Twenty-Four

When it was finally lunch time I felt so much relief. There had been so much tension in all my classes. I met Luke outside of the Lunchroom and we walked in together hand in hand.

“How was class?” He asked.

“Oh it was okay.” I said looking down.

“Is something wrong?”

“No not at all!” I smiled at him.

We walked through the lunch line and Luke paid for my lunch without even asking. How sweet. We took our seats at the usual table where the boys and Jenni were already sitting.

“Hey guys!” I said.

“Hey Ali, Luke.” Noah said sweetly.

“So Jason did you have fun at the party?” Luke asked.

“Loads.” Jason said sarcastically.

“Oh come on it looked like you had fun with that blonde girl.” I stated.

“Yeah...sure.”

“What’s with Mr. grumpy?” I asked Noah who shrugged.

I turned to Luke. “So Christmas break is next week!”

“Yeah! I think we are going to New York for the New Years. It should be fun, mom lets us invite friends too.”

“That’s awesome!”

“Yeah. We can have a carriage ride in central park, and New Year’s kiss.”

I smiled blushed.

Then all of a sudden Jason stormed away from the table muttering something about throwing up. I sighed. “I’ll be right back.”

I followed Jason out of the cafeteria and outside to a bench. I sat next to him. “What’s wrong?”

He didn’t answer. “Jason what’s wrong?”

“Nothing Ali, just go back inside okay?”

“Jason we are friends, I’m not going inside when there is obviously something bothering you.”

“Look Ali I don’t need this. I don’t need you to be my friend. I don’t need someone constantly following me around and asking me a million questions. I’m not your mom and you are certainly NOT mine. So why don’t you just do everyone a favor and leave me alone.”

I stared at him is disbelief. “Jason you know what! I’m sick and tired of you deciding when we are friends or not. You’re the one who left me hanging at the party and was making out with that girl and I was mad at first but I let it go because I saw you were upset. I did NOTHING wrong so don’t try to blame this on me! I’m sorry for giving a shit about you! I’m sorry I ever met you Jason.” Tears were rolling down my eyes.

“Ali just go home and cry to your mother. Seriously…..” and he got up and left me on the bench sobbing. How many times am I going to let him do this to me.

“UHG! I can’t do that Jason! You want to know why? BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE A MOTHER!” I screamed not really caring who heard me.

I sobbed violently until I started to shake. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t live in the moment if everyone is bringing up my past. I was shaking so violently that it hurt.

“Ali?!” I didn’t look up to see who it was. I just continued rocking, shaking, and sobbing. I felt someone grab me and put their arms around me. I tried to push them away but I couldn’t. I couldn’t even control my thoughts anymore. Things just started slipping out of my mouth.

“Why me! I need her! Why did she have to leave me. Why did she have to die!”

“Shhh Ali calm down.” Someone tried to sooth me.

“It’s all their fault! They killed her. HE KILLED HER!” I sobbed violently.

“Ali look at me. Shhh. Ali it’s okay I’m here.” I looked over to the person holding me. It was Noah.

I tried to calm my sobbing but I couldn’t control my shaking body. He put his arms around me and just held me. “Ali shhh. It’s okay.”

I started to calm down. “Noah….I need to tell you something.” I said with a shakey voice. I didn’t have a choice. He needed an explanation.

“What is it Ali?”

“Noah, My mother was killed in an accident recently. That’s why I live with Luke.” Tears started to flow again, and Noah grabbed my hand. “I never used to hate your music. I LOVED your music. On December 5th my mom and I went to your concert. It was the best time I ever had.” My voice broke.” When we left the concert it was snowing. We looked out the window and noticed a limo driving next to us-“

“Oh God Ali…”

Ignored his comment. “I saw the limo hit us and then there was pain. So much pain. And my mom she was gone. She was gone all because of you guys!” I started to cry harder. “Then when I moved here and I found out you were going to MY new school. I was trying to escape my past….but you just slapped me in the face with it.”

“Oh God Ali. I am so sorry. I am more than sorry. I can’t even….I just….Ali look at me.” He pulled my face to look at him. “I wish that never happened to you. I wish I could take it all back. I would do anything to give you your mother back.” A tear rolled down his eye and I smiled through my tears.

I wiped the tear off his face. I took a deep breath. “I’m sorry. I try to forget the past and live in the moment, but it’s really hard.”

“Ali you should never have to forget your past. It’s what makes you.”

“Noah I have to.”

He nodded. “I understand…..Ali I’m so sorry.”

“It’s oaky.” He pulled me into a hug and we sat like that for a while.

“No more past. Only future. Got it.” He said standing up and bringing me with him.

I smiled. “Thanks.”

“So what happened with Jason?”

“I don’t even know. I thought we were friends….but I guess not. He won’t even tell me what’s wrong.”

“Hmmmm.”

He didn’t say anything but I feel like there is something everyone knows but me.

We walked into the cafeteria and ran right into Luke.

“What happened?” Luke asked grabbing my face.

“Nothing….It’s okay. I’m fine.”

“Ali you were crying. What happened? Was it Jason? I swear to GOD if he hurt you-“

“No it wasn’t Jason.” I lied. “I told Noah….about the accident.”

“You did?”

I nodded. He kissed me on the forehead. “I’m proud of you.”

The bell rang and Luke walked me to class. “Just yell if you need me” he winked.

“Will do.”

I walked into class surprised to see Jason sitting in his usual seat. I took my seat without a word and went to work.

“Hey Ali are you okay?” Jenni asked. “You look like you’ve been crying.”

“No. I’m fine….”

“Okay.” She smiled.

I chatted with Noah throughout the whole class. I’m glad it wasn’t awkward now that he knew.

The rest of the day passed quickly and to my relief I didn’t have any more encounters with Jason.

*************************************************************************************************So she finally tells Noah.....Will she ever tell the rest of them??? Love you my lovelies! Thanks for reading! Comment and vote!

-Ashy