A Reviving Vocal

XLI - Be the Light

The basketball is already over about twenty minutes ago and unfortunately, our school's team lost. We were supposed to go right into rehearsals after the game but then Reece suddenly held my hand and walked me to an empty locker room.

"I'm sorry for bringing you here all of a sudden."

'Didn't you say you are never going to bother me again if I watched your game?' I typed in as quick as possible and showed it to him with a straight face - trying to look calm.

"Y-Yeah. I just want to give you this again."

I want to cry all over again.

Memories are now flashing back in light speed. All of those, both good and bad, are making me sad and lonely at the same time. The silver bracelet he gave me during that time in the Ferris wheel brought so many things to me and it hurt. I didn't know that memories could hurt me this much.

Lumapit na siya sa'kin at inilagay yung bracelet sa palad ko habang nag-sasalita ng mahinhin. "I hope that you can find the answer that you are looking for all these time."

The answer that will make me happy?

Nag-lakad na siya papalayo at lumabas ng locker room, habang ako nakatayo pa rin, hawak-hawak yung binigay niyang bracelet. Maya maya, naramdaman kong nanghihina na'ko nang dahil sa... hindi ko alam. Bigla na lang ako bumagsak sa sahig habang umiiyak ng tahimik. Muttering questions that has no point in answering anymore - like, why does he have to make moments with me?

If I knew it was going to happen to me, hurt me, I would never had made memories with him anymore.

There was silence everywhere in the room but then, a sound came from the door opening and I was hoping that it's going to be him again - yet it was somebody else.

Lumapit lang siya sa'kin at ibinigay 'yung journal at ballpen sa may bench sa harap ko habang nakaupo sa sahig. Tinitigan ko lang siya pero iba ang nakita ko sa mukha niya - kakaibang ngiti na hindi ko malaman kung anong ibig sabihin. Patuloy pa ring tumutulo yung mga luha ko habang nagsusulat ako ng nanghihina. Ilang minuto na ang nakalipas nang matapos kong isulat lahat nang gusto kong ilabas, lahat ng gusto kong sabihin.

This was the only way I could express how I actually feel.

It was mostly rants about Reece, but it also had questions, so many of them that I think some may have the same meaning. Nevertheless, he read all of it while I was trying to get all of the tears away from my face. I am still confused as to why he's here - did Reece tell him?

I was about to go ask him why through the black notebook he is currently holding but then he suddenly spoke in a serious tone.

"How about making new memories with me... and if you let me, I will try and take out the bad ones myself."

D-Did Rain really just say that?

Rain stammered as soon as he realized that I am so shocked at what he just said. I felt my cheeks burn up while I was trying to get back the journal he is currently holding in his hands. "S-Sorry."

I really want to break off this awkward atmosphere but Rain is always taking the journal away from me. After a few seconds of struggling to get it, he put the black notebook down on the bench and wrote something.

'I just want to be friends with you again...'

Medyo natawa ako sa nabasa ko habang nagsusulat na rin ng ir-reply ko sa kanya. 'We're already friends, you idiot.'

He somehow gave me a loud but tense chuckle after he finished reading what I wrote. "Kamusta na nga pala yung therapy mo?"

I re-arranged my hair that went in front of my face as I tried to make a sound. Coughing a little bit helped me a lot when an almost inaudible 'ha' can be heard all over the room. Rain smiled slightly and brought his hands together to clap, as if something amazing just happened. "Gumagana naman pala eh. Paano nila nagagawa yun?"

'They gave me medications. And then they would force me to make out a sound... I don't really know how to explain it.' Ngayon naman, tinype ko na lang yun dahil masyadong mabagal yung pagsulat ko. Binasa na niya yun pero nag-taka ako nung nakita ko yung expression ng mukha niya -- para siyang naiinis.

Ibinigay naman niya kaagad sa'kin yung phone ko at nakita kong nag-text si Reece. Alam kong siya 'yun kahit na number lang ang nakalagay dahil familiar na sa'kin yun. 'Keep the bracelet, please.' It said.

Ngayon ko na lang rin naalala yung bracelet at nasa sahig na pala ito sa likod ko. Kinuha ko ito at pinagmasdan -- kumikinang lahat, parang hindi mo aakalaing yung bracelet na 'yun ay may malungkot na halaga. Muntik na, muntik nanaman akong umiyak pero tumigil ito dahil kinuha ni Rain yung bracelet. Umakyat siya sa isang bench at tinapon yung bracelet sa may bintanang nakabukas sa taas ng mga lockers. Kaagad akong nalungkot at nainis sa ginawa niya.

'Bakit mo ginawa yun?' I asked.

I am crying again, not because of Rain, but because of the memories that bracelet brought me.

"M-Maybe. Maybe I may not be like everyone else in your life, but I can at least make you happy. If you let me, I will help you start all over again."

No, Rain.

Maybe is such a let-downer word.

Maybe you will leave me like how he left me with a shattered piece in my heart.

I looked up at him to meet his gaze staring into my soul. "Aika, how can I just leave you broken like that when I finally found you?" He hopped off the bench he was sitting on a few seconds ago, afterwards, he crouched down to my level and whispered with a slight blush on his cheeks. "I need... want to fix you."

end of chapter fourty one
A/N: sorry maikli lang 'to. Hahabaan ko naman next chapter at baka i-post ko yun bukas. Naeexcite kasi ako HAHAHA. Kung may time kayo, pabasa na rin ng prologue nung bago kong story ma fanfiction. Hihihi thank you!!!

Maraming salamat sa mga nagbabasa!!!! Huhuhu. Kiligin sana kayo pls XD

PS: ngayon ko lang din nalaman ang tamang pagkakasunud-sunod mg mga roman numerals :P