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song-imagine: bloodstream by edsheeran

Ashton

"All the voices in my mind calling out across the line" 

Ashton was leaving his hotel for the first time in days. He hadn't left because he knew what they would say. They would call him a douche. They would say he wasn't talented. They would call him rude for not stopping. But the last one on the list would hurt him the most. They would say he was unfaithful. He knew he couldn't change what happened. He couldn't change the fact that he was so lonely and the girl looked just like you, he just couldn't help himself. When you saw the pictures, accused him of cheating, he was honest. But in return you called him all the names that were being shouted at him. He couldn't do this anymore. He couldn't listen to all the nasty thing. He needed them to stop. He would make them stop. 

Luke

"One or two could free my mind this how it ends"

He lost you. The only thing that truly meant something to him. Sure, he had his career in music, he had his friends and family, but he didn't have you. When he got the call saying you had been in an accident he didn't know what to do. He was shocked. He kept telling himself that it wasn't true, you weren't really gone, this was all some sick joke to get him to come home faster. But it wasn't a sick joke, you were gone.  When he came back home you weren't there to greet him, you were laying sick feet under, dead. He couldn't live without you. He wouldn't. So pill after pill, one after another, sitting next to you, he made the nightmare end. 

Michael

"couple women by my side i got sinning on my mind"

He didn't know what he was doing. He couldn't get the pictures out of his head. The memories, the yelling, ending it. He kept thinking about you, about your silky skin and your shining eyes. The way you would demand to be the big spoon even when you were so much smaller than him. Images of you flooded his mind. People kept saying that the only way to get over you was to be lying over someone else. He had hundreds of girls to choose from, and he would use as many as he needed, until he got you out of his head. 

Calum

"i feel the chemicals burn in my bloodstream so tell me when it kicks in"

Drugs was what got him through it. You told him you couldn't handle all the attention, you couldn't deal with always being away from him, you thought he was too good for you, so you ended it. But Calum knew the truth. He knew that in reality, you were too good for him. He knew you would get sick of him, he was a lovesick puppy, super clingy. He couldn't help it. He loved you. He dealed with it the only way he knew how. A line before breakfast, a blunt before bed, cigarettes and alcohol in between. It wasn't healthy but it was the only thing that made him feel something other than heartbreak. And it was enough for him. The faster he could get it into his bloodstream, the better.