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Too Good (Calum Hood/Luke Hemmings)

Story line: Big brother Luke is really protective and when you and Calum decide to date, he accept it but he doesn't like it. When the two of you break up, Luke can't believe you didn't tell him.

They say that everything happens for a reason. I didn't know if that was true but I didn't know why this awful thing happened to me. Luke had warned me, he knew that me dating one of his friends was a bad idea. But he was a good brother so he let me date him, because he knew I was in love with him. Of course he didn't like the situation, he didn't like see his friend with his arms around me, kissing me and God knows what he said about me when they were alone. But he let us do our thing. He was protective, like any other older brother, but he behaved himself and stayed out of our things.

But what he feared, it happened. Calum, my boyfriend and one of his best friends, had cheated on me. I was willing to forgive him, because I was madly in love with him, and because he told me, again and again, that he hadn't done on purpose. "I forgive you", I told him after a few days, when I had the chance to think about the situation. I remember the way Calum looked at me, like he was hurt and worried at the same time. He shook his head and he dropped in bed.

"You're too good", he mumbled.

"I'm still mad at you", I answered. "But I think we can work this out. You told me you were drunk, that you didn't know what you were doing. I thought about that and... The truth is that I love you and I'm willing to put this in the past", I explained him.

"You're too good", he repeated, shaking his head. "I can't let you do this".

I frowned, confused. "You don't want me to forgive you?".

"Yes, of course I want that", he answered, looking at me. "But I know this is going to haunt you over and over again". I opened my mouth but Calum interrupted me before I could say anything. "And I like you Y/N but I'm not sure I love you the way you love me".

His words stabbed me in my heart, like knives. My body froze, my throat went dry and my eyes began to burn. I felt so powerless, so small, so... stupid. I had spent sleepless nights trying to figure out what to do. Trying to decide if I should leave him and go on with my life or forgive him. And finally, when I had decided to forgive him, to give us a chance, he was the one leaving me. Because Calum was breaking with me.

"I did it once, I'm going to do it again", he confessed. "I know myself and I don't want to hurt you more".

I didn't know if I was supposed to feel relieved or thank him for what he was doing but, truth be told, I was devastated. If he didn't love me in the first place, why did we date? Yes, of course people dated because they liked each other but it wasn't supposed to be something else?

My head was going to explode. It had been a week since Calum had broken up with me. I hadn't talked with anyone about it; I didn't want people to pity me. And, above all, I didn't want to see my brother and hear him say that 'he knew it'. I also was afraid because I didn't want him to argue with Calum. They were best friends and whatever happened between us, was between us, not between Luke, Calum and me.

I guess I fell asleep because the noise of the door of my room open at one stroke woke me up. I opened my eyes, disorientated and I looked around, finding Luke at the entrance of my bedroom. His arms were crossed over his chest and his factions were tensed. "What happened?", I asked, worried. Luke wasn't the kind of boy who got mad easily.

"I don't know, you tell me", he spat. I frowned, not knowing where this conversation was going. But not many seconds passed until I discovered what he was doing there. He knew. He knew what happened and he was there to ask me why I didn't tell him anything. And he was mad, really mad. Before I could say anything, he said: "Oh, you remember now? Good, because I need to ask you something. Why the hell you didn't tell me?!", he asked really furious. "I felt like a stupid when Calum asked how were you and he told me that you guys broke up".

"I.. I didn't... I...", I sighed. I didn't know how to start that conversation. Did Calum tell Luke why he broke up with me? Did Calum tell Luke that he cheated on me? There was so many questions that I didn't know how to order my thoughts. "I wasn't ready to talk", I finally answered. And it was true, I wasn't ready to talk about it to anyone. It hurt, it hurt so much that I didn't want to relive all the conversation with Calum again.

"I understand that but the least you could have done was tell me you and Calum were not longer a thing".

"Why?", I asked, a bit angry. "It's my life, Luke! And I wasn't ready to talk, like I'm not ready now. It hurts, you know? It hurts so much and talk about it it's not going to solve anything. Calum cheated on me and told me that he didn't love me, I don't need to remember it over and over again, okay?", I exploded.

"He did what?!". I widened my eyes when Luke yelled. He didn't know. He didn't know all the truth. I covered my face, sighed and tried to find the correct words to calm Luke down. I didn't want him to argue with his friends. I actually didn't need a fight.

"Okay, calm down", I begged him. "Just listen to me, okay?". Luke was about to talk but I shook my head. He rolled his eyes. "Don't be mad at him, I already forgive him for what he did. I know it doesn't have any sense but he told me it was caused by the alcohol and I believe him. It hurts anyway but at least he didn't do it on purpose. And I'm mad, I'm really mad at him but he did what he needed to do. He broke up with me because he knew it wasn't going anywhere, at least for him. That doesn't mean I'm not sad or that I don't want to cry every minute. Because that's what I want. I love him and it's going to take a while for me to get better. I'm sorry if I didn't tell you anything, Luke. I didn't have the strength and I actually don't have any obligation to do it. I know you care for me and I appreciate it but I need space and I don't need to worry about you hitting Calum face or something like that".

When I ended my speech, I realized tears were rolling down my face. Luke sighed and sat beside me on the bed. "I'm sorry", he said. "And you're too good".

"I know. Believe me, I know", I mumbled while I let my head fall on Luke's shoulder and he kissed my forehead.