5SOS imagines and preferences

Secret (Ashton Irwin)

Story line: You're hiding something from Ashton but he finds out.

I wasn't having a good day. Brian was screaming like he was crazy, he was throwing things everywhere and every time I try to pick him up, he started to cry. I hid in the kitchen, I put my elbows on the counter, I covered my head with my hands and sighed loudly. I was so tired I thought one day I was going to explode. I didn't know how I could live my life, but somehow I was living it. In the morning, I went to work. By noon, I went to my parents to eat with them and Brian. In the afternoon, I took Brian home where I played with him, I prepared dinner and we slept. I had no social life until I met Ashton. And, in fact, meeting him brought a bittersweet taste in my life. He was something fresh, funny and adorable; but he was also a problem because he didn't know Brian existed and I was thinking about keeping it that way. I wasn't ashamed of Brian but Ashton was too young to have to deal with him. I was young too but I made a decision a year ago and I didn't have regrets.

I didn't know what to do with Ashton, I couldn't be at two places at once and Brian needed my attention. I couldn't let him with my parents every few minutes because it didn't work like that. I was his mother after all, so I needed to take responsibilities.

"Hey, Brian. I love you but you have to stop yelling because my head is going to explode", I said to him. He looked at me like if I was something amazing and then started to scream again. I rolled my eyes and I laughed. He was so happy and that made me so happy. With a simple year of life, Brian had been through everything and I could only hope that when he grew up, he had it easier.

The doorbell rang and I went to see who it was. When I saw Ashton on the other side of the door, I panicked. I started to jump and move my arms like if I was crazy and when Brian made a sound, I panicked even more. What he was doing there? I didn't invited him! "Y/N, are you there?". Shit! What I has going to say?

"Yes, I'm here! What are you doing here?", I answered.

"Why don't you open the door and see it for yourself?", he said laughing. I facepalmed myself.

"Yeah, wait a second!", I yelled back. I went to the living room and I looked at Brian who, again, was looking at me like if I was something special. "Okay buddy, you have to help me here", I said crouching in front of him. "He can't know you are here, okay? Because I really like that boy and I don't want to scare him. That doesn't mean you're scary but you know, babies are... Babies are something hard to swallow when you're young and all that. You'll understand when you get older. So please, please, please don't yell or made any sound. I'll let you eat whatever you want if you do that, okay?". I knew he didn't understand a word I said but it didn't matter because I prayed and begged to all Gods.

I took a deep breath before opening the door. Ashton was smiling from ear to ear and he was holding a small box in his hands. But that wasn't all, he... "Oh my God you cut your hair!", I exclaimed and I covered my mouth with my hands.

Ashton laughed. "Do you like it? I kinda fought with my mum about this for months and I finally decided to make her happy".

"Aww, aren't you cute?", I said, smiling. "I love it". Ashton pretended to be relieved and I laughed even more. I loved that boy so much that it was crazy.

"So... Are you going to let me in?".

"Yeahhhhhhhhhh... No", I finally said smiling awkwardly. "It's mess and I don't want you to see my apartment like this".

"Oh, come on", he almost begged. "I came all the way here to bring you this", he explained moving the box and smiling like a little kid. I hesitated and I hated myself for that; Ashton was the kind of boy who could get anything for me and that was really scaring. "Huh... Y/N?", Ashton said. When I looked at him, his smile had disappeared. "I think there's a baby in your house?".

"What?", I yelled while I turned around. Brian stopped and he looked at me so innocently that I couldn't help but roll my eyes. "Jeez, Brian. Thanks", I mumbled while I went to pick him up. "You can come inside now", I told Ashton. Ashton hesitated before entering and I thanked him for not opening his mouth all the way to the living room. His eyes widened when he saw the room full of toys and things for kids. "Do you want to sit?", I asked, biting my lip. He was so shocked that I was afraid he was going to run away.

"Yeah, I think so", he mumbled.

"I think we need to talk", I mumbled letting Brian on the floor and sitting next to Ashton.

"You think?", he said, looking at Brian.

"It's not what you think", I said. "Well, it is but there's a story behind". Ashton nodded; he was willing to hear me out and that was a lot more than I could ever ask. "He's my baby but he isn't by birth". I feel sorry for Ashton because I saw his face go from shock to confusion. "My best friend got pregnant and she was scared and all that but she was convinced, at least, to have the child and if she didn't want it , she could give him in adoption. She then decided that she wanted him so we stopped all. She seemed truly happy, seriously. I thought that was what she wanted but when Brian was born... She disappeared. She ran away and she left her kid behind". I sighed and I covered my face. "I couldn't let Brian with some strangers so I adopted him. I know it's crazy because I'm really young but I... I–". Ashton grabbed my hand, stopping my words and looked at me with the most loveable eyes.

"You did what you needed to do and you're going to be an amazing mum, that's if you aren't a great mom already", he pointed out with a smile in his face. "Why didn't you tell me?".

I sighed. "Because we haven't been dating that long and I didn't want to scare you".

"I'm not a child", he said.

"I'm seeing this now", I sighed again. "What's in the box?", I asked when I saw it.

"Well, I was giving it to you but given the circumstances, I think it's an ideal present for Brian", he said and I frowned, confused. "Can I pick him?". I nodded and Ashton got up and picked Brian up. Brian looked at him and smiled. He put his small hands in his face and I couldn't help but smile at the sight. "Hello big boy, I'm Ashton and if your mommy wants, I'm going to be around for a while". Ashton looked at me and I bit my lip. "I brought your mommy a present but I think you're going to like it even more. Do you want it?". Ashton didn't wait for an answer. He grabbed the box, removed the cover and pulled out a Pokemon. I laughed because I remembered the afternoon I saw it behind the store window and I told Ashton that I wanted it. Brian started to scream and Ashton laughed. "I think he likes it".

"Thank you", I mumbled. Ashton smiled and came over to me. He bended a bit, with Brian in his arms, and kissed my forehead.

"I get it, I really do", he said before sitting on the ground and playing with Brian.