You didn't know how long you've been sitting in that one spot, nor did you care in the slightest. You didn't bother to check your phone, to see if anyone's tried to contact you. You sat as still as ever, staring into nothing but darkness as tears freely flowed down your face. The darkness of the night only made you feel more lonely, along with the words that Luke has supposedly said about you.
You started to wonder that if even your childhood bestfriend, thought all these horrid things about you.. what does everyone else think? Someone you trust or trusted with your whole life at the Palm of his hand thought you were so annoying and needy. You felt so useless and so unwanted by everyone. Even if it was just Luke who said it, it damaged you more than if it were Calum, Ash, or Mikey. You and Luke have been through think and thin, he's seen you at your worst and your best.. suddenly you wonder what his thoughts were when he's seen you at your worst. You shake the awful thoughts out of your head or at least try, but it's very difficult to think of anything else at this point. You've even seen Luke at his worst, you've seen him when he's piss drunk, eyes blood shot crying about his parents fighting or how all the stress about the band is adding up. Yet you still thought he was the most beautiful person, inside and out.
"Jesus Christ (Y/N), we thought we'd find you here" you were snapped out of your thoughts by loud foot steps stomping towards you and 3 shadow figures making there way to your spot. You sighed and lifted your weak arm to wipe away the tears still streaming down your face. You knew for a fact they were beet red and puffy. But you could care less about your appearance, the boy you loved most didn't even think you were pretty at your best. Why would you care anymore.
"Well this is my favorite place" you wiped your wet hands off on the side of your black jeans. Exhaling a huge breath you didn't even know you were holding in. Calum sighed as they all took a seat next to me.
"Shouldn't be my favorite place anymore huh?" You laughed sadly.You remembered the day just like it was yesterday. You and Luke always came to the park, to do your homework, sometimes to just hang out. He thought it was so peaceful and relaxing. That's one thing you always loved about him.. how humble and down to earth he was. You being stupid and confused little teenagers wanted to know what it felt like to kiss someone. So the bright idea popped into his head, why not have your first kisses with each other.
"You must be freezing, we should get back to the house" Knowing Calum was right you nodded your head. Calum was up before you and reached his hand out for you to grab onto. He pulled you up and you suddenly felt insecure because you were obviously to heavy, that's what Luke said anyways so it must be true. Calum could see the thoughts written all over your face. "Light as a feather" he smiled slightly bumping his shoulder into you.
The walk back home was also peaceful, you were able to clear your mind a little more with the comfort of your 3 bestfriends with you. No one said a word other than Michael and Ashton's soft giggles towards each other but you found that rather relaxing as well. Once you reached the door you took in a large breath scared for what was about to happen. It could be anything, but all you wanted to do right now was hide under a rock and never leave.
Calum put his hand on your lower back drawing small circles with his hand, something Luke always did to comfort you. "Ready?" he looked down at you reassuringly. You nodded your head slightly not trusting your words at all. He opened the door to his house as you all stepped and and slowly made your way to the living room where you assumed Abbi and Luke were still sitting. Once you came around the corner Luke was quick to stand up.
"You fucking bitch" he spat angrily. Your eyes widened in shock when you realized he was pointing and glaring at you. Your lip slightly trembled. "what" you said just above a whisper, but certain he didn't hear a thing.
He pointed down to a crying Abbi with her head buried deep into her hands. "You have the fucking nerve to tell her a bunch of bullshit and call her a slut just because she's dating me. I understand your petty little crush on me (Y/N) and I could've dealt with that but I'm with Abbi and you need to except you. You can't go around being a whiny little bitch just because you didn't get your way." he snarled at you. If looks could kill you would be on the ground in an instant.
"Woah Luke bro chill" Michael decided to butt in which you were very thankful for.
"No you know what, I will not fucking chill. She can't just disrespect someone who means the world to me" his foot stopped on the ground as his face was filled with anger.
You were supposed to mean the world to him. His best friend, you. Not her.
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5SOS imagines and preferences
Fanfictionhey guys so i decided to make a 5sos imagines and preferences book to make all you 5sos lovers happy...well thats what i intend to do haha sooo enjoy beautiful people :)