CHAPTER 8
THE FUNERAL
§ LOUIS §
"We will now have a moment of silence for Ellie," said the priest.
I was at Ellie's funeral... with Keelan and Ellie's mum and dad.
We were the only people that came.
It felt so surreal. I didn't want to believe that this was happening. It was like I was trapped in a nightmare... and I couldn't wake up. Just thinking about how depressed Ellie was. How miserable she was, to the point that she would take her own life...
And I blamed myself. I fucking blamed myself. When I'd walked out of her bedroom when me and Keelan went over to her house that day... and I looked back, not wanting to leave her alone. Seeing the state that she was in, collapsed on her floor in a ball, rocking backwards and forwards...
But I left her there.
I left her there, and left her house.
I didn't turn around and walk back to her bedroom to help her.
I just kept on walking.
The photographs that the police had taken of her bedroom from the night she committed suicide kept replaying and replaying themselves in my head, like a form of torture. I couldn't get over it. I couldn't comprehend it.
Her body lying limply in her own pool of blood. There was so much blood...
So much blood.
She'd shot herself through the temple, knocking herself over... Bleeding out for minutes, before her body failed her and gave up on her.
Her life flashing before her eyes.
I felt fucking shit about myself. It didn't matter that I didn't pull the fucking trigger. I blamed myself for this. This was all my fucking fault...
And I would never forgive myself for this.
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