After what happened with Jackson... I ran to the convenience store. I really didn't want to be alone right now. I was keeping everything inside of me bottled up, and I really needed somebody to talk to, no matter who it was.
The owner of the convenience store was an Indian man named Raj. I was one of his regular customers; I always went to his shop to buy some snacks before I went to school, so he was quite fond of me and we exchanged some jokes and banter here and there.
He was the only person left that I could think of who would actually just sit there and listen to me without judging me or making me feel like shit for having feelings. Everybody expects boys not to cry... But that's fucking bullshit. The mental health of a man matters just as much as a woman's does.
I walked into the shop, sighing. Raj was sat there behind the counter, counting the change in his till. He looked up and saw me standing there, and his eyes instantly lit up.
"Keelan!" he exclaimed, with his hands on his hips. "My favourite customer. What can I do for you?"
"Actually, I was wondering if I could talk to you," I admitted timidly, and he rubbed his chin in thought.
"Of course," he smiled.
And so I vented out all of my frustration about everything that was going on in my shitstorm of a life.
***
WEEKS LATER
§ LOUIS §
I made my way to Ellie's grave, tears streaming down my face. The funeral was weeks ago... Yet I found myself bending down next to her headstone again, trying to gain some closure. Trying to speak to her even though she wasn't here... Trying to lessen the guilt that I felt for not looking out for her properly.
I took in a deep breath, and then sighed. It was no use... The tears continued to fall.
"Why did you have to go, Ellie?" I sobbed. "I feel so broken. Nothing is the same. I'm doing stupid shit, and I'm not the nice guy I used to be." I rocked my head back and forth in my hands. "I just want you to come back. I keep blaming myself for what happened to you. You don't deserve this. You should be here with me and Keelan."
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