I searched them all, and all the articles I read seemed to say the same thing. To accept your feelings and stop socialising so much.
It's been days since the whole thing happened, but I can't seem to get over it. Since then I've come to terms that I like Kai. I want to tell someone but I don't know who. If I told the other members they might tell Kai, because in the dorm we have a pact to tell each other everything, and everyone takes it seriously.
I tried thinking of people that always listen, and always have an open mind. Chan was the first person that came to mind, but he's the one who invented the honesty pact, so he would probably tell. I thought about my sister, but then again I feel like she'd tease me. I thought for a while longer and decided to tell one of my good friends from Australia, Demi. I dialled her number and within seconds she picked up. I can ALWAYS count on her bitchass.
"Hey bitch what's up?"
"Hey Demi. I just needed someone to talk too."
"Mhmmm... I'm the bitch you came to?"
"Duh you little shit, you always listen!"
"Ok so what's happened? Oooo! Did you get your soulmate?"
"I don't know Dem! You know how I told you that there was someone joining our group? Well I like him. Like, like him."
"Bach how?"
"I walked in on him showering, but other than that he's so nice, and kind and genuine, and just the type of person I want in my life! What the fuck am I supposed to do?"
"You go and get your mans bitch, you have to make him like you back? What if he is you u soulmate? You're not gonna know until you kiss him! So got get him!"
"Thanks Dem. I knew you'd listen. Bye I guess."
"Bye daddy"
After I got off the phone I decided to look on Snapchat for a bit. Snapchat always made me feel better. It helped to see people who had their soulmates, and their put together life. It was almost like something for me to build toward, in a way. While I was browsing, do course I got a notification that Demi had made a post. That bitch is obsessed with this app.
@Demzz❤️
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Pov: you just got off the phone from listening to your bestie bitch about his new crush🌸
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Louuuu? Bitch who
Gigiboots Spill the tea babes 🍵
Demzz❤️ Tea is hot, I can't spill it
Official_leefelix Bitch I knew you'd postttt DONT TELL WHO, ESPECIALLY NOT TO GIGI
As soon as I commented I realised what I'd done. I forgot to change accounts to my secret account, and I commented on the one that everyone knows is me. I tried to delete it, but it was glitching and wouldn't let me."Fuck!" I yelled, furiously tapping the delete button. Still though, it wouldn't delete.
Soon enough there was a knock in the door. "Felix you have a crush?" It was chan. I felt the bed sink down next to me and I could feel his gaze. "Why are you crying lix?" He asked. He reached over and wiped my tears away. I didn't realise I was crying until he pointed it out. "I'm sorry Hyung." I said. "Lix it's fine ok? Everyone gets crushes! But, can I know who it is?" I could tell at t he moment he was bestie chan, not leader chan. It was safe enough to proceed, but I had to use an immense amount of caution.
"You can't tell." I said. "Pinky promise?" He asked, holding out his pinky. "Pinky promise." I said, looping mine around his and shaking. "Ok so... who is it?" "Chan it's Kai." I blurted out. I didn't say anything, and neither did he. For a while.
"Shit." "Chan I don't know what to do! He's just so nice! I-" "Lix it's ok. It's just complicated. Who knows? He might even be your soulmate?"
I hadn't thought about it like that. It's said that your supposed to have feeling for your soulmate pretty quickly. And I did get feelings pretty quickly.
