𝚂𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚖𝚝𝚎? // 𝙵𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚡 𝚇 𝟿𝚝𝚑 𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛

8

Kai pov

Ever since thesaurus felix walked in on me, he'd been a bit distant. He didn't start as many conversations, and the late night chats we had were fewer and fewer. I'd wondered if I overstepped a boundary, or if I did something wrong, but if I did I couldn't think of it.

I miss his cute laugh when I make a joke. I miss his smile and the fact that he would listen for hours on end and not judge you. I guess what I'm really saying is that I miss him.

I miss him.

I miss him.

I miss him.

It feels weird to say it, even if it is o lay in my head. If feels weird because I've never missed someone in quite the same way as this. Sure I've missed someone before, like my mother or my sister, or my step-father, but I've never missed someone that I room with, and that I only met around a week ago.

It hurt to see someone that I talked to so much when I first got here drifting away slowly for a reason I can't see. It hurt to not have this guy by my side. I wanted to do something about it. I needed to. So, naturally to went to chan. I was pretty sure he would know what to do, and he did.

I knocked on the door to chans office, and listened for him to tell me to come in. When he did I opened the door and sat I front of him. "What's up Kai?" He asked lowering his laptop screen. "Hyung did I do anything wrong to Felix? Because he isn't really talking to me and I don't know why." I said. He paused for a moment before looking a little confused. "Kai as far as I know you did absolutely nothing wrong to him. He's just going through something at the moment. That might be what it is. I'm sorry I couldn't help anymore, but from experience, just ask to watch a movie with him, or to play a game in the Xbox. He'll like that." I thanked chan and walked out of the room to find Felix.

When I found him he was playing Apex Legends on the Xbox. He's so cute when he's focused. I sat next to him and watched. He died soon enough and turned to give me a quick smile. "Do you mid if I play?" I asked him. He nodded and handed me a controller. I connected it and we started to play.

We played for hours. We played for so long that chan had to come and take the controllers out of our hands so we could eat dinner. When we were playing, it was like nothing had happened. Felix was talking again and just now I realised actually how much I missed him.

When we finished dinner we all went to bed early, as we starting to record a new album tomorrow, and it'd be the first time people would hear me rap. As I got into bed, Felix talked to me. Like he used too. And I felt happy, and full.

What's happening to me?