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chapter sixteen: alyssum

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chapter sixteen: alyssum

When you get back to Atsumu's place, the two of you enjoy the dinner he offered to buy. You then sit with him on the sofa and pass him the television remote as he exchanges it for a glass of wine.

"Anything you want to watch?" he asks as he sits down beside you.

"Hm, not really. A movie?" you offer.

"Sure, I'll look for something," he suggests as he flips through the channels. Eventually, he finds a movie that both of you have heard of, but never seen. It's a movie about a dog named Marley. Sounds good enough, so you both enjoy watching the cute scenes.

A few minutes into the movie, Atsumu moves his arm around the back of the couch, stretching out just behind you.

"Comfortable?" you tease as you smile over at him.

"Yeah, you're warm. It's comforting," he smiles back, causing heat to swarm your face.

"If I didn't know better I'd think you're flirting with me," you laugh as you turn back to the movie, hoping he doesn't see the flustered look written all over you.

"Am I not supposed to?" you hear his voice ask ever quieter now.

You quickly down the rest of the drink in your glass and then get up to avoid the question. However, as you stand to walk past him, he grabs onto your hand and looks you straight in the eyes.

"If you want me to stop, tell me now, Y/N."

Your head a bit fuzzy from the alcohol you already consumed, you pull your arm out of your grasp and get out of there as soon as possible. You rush over to the kitchen as quickly as possible and drink straight from the bottle. Seriously, what the hell is wrong with you? You just found out that Osamu didn't want to get married and now you're letting his brother put the moves on you? You're not sure if it's wrong or right, but you don't necessarily want it to stop. You love spending time with Atsumu, but he really does mess with your head. It must be a symptom of how handsome he is.

After pouring your glass all the way to the top and taking a gulp that finishes half the glass, you make your way back to Atsumu.

"Are you okay?" he asks plainly, not wanting to pry too much and make you uncomfortable.

Falling for him was definitely not part of the plan when you spontaneously started living with him.

"I'm fine, sorry. I just needed a moment," you say as you scoot yourself closer to him and place your head down against his shoulder.

"You don't need to force anything if you don't want-"

"I do, just... Can we watch the movie now?" you ask.

Atsumu nods. "Sure."

However, it's not long until the once cute movie about an adorable-looking dog takes a turn for the worse and you blink away the water forming in your eyes. You sit up from your spot against his shoulder and ask if he can put something else on.

"Yeah, I think that's a good idea," he nods as he looks away, sniffling as he changes the channel. He flips through a few channels before landing on a movie that's already halfway through. As you watch it, you realize it's pretty shitty, but whatever.

Now more than before, thoughts begin to flood your head. You hate how you're falling for the guy sitting beside you. You wish you could just talk to him about it, but you know talking will only make it worse. Your feelings are growing and you're terrified to see how this is all going to play out.

"Y/N," Atsumu says tiredly with half-closed eyes, "Do you know what time it is?"

"Two a.m.," you reply. "Are you tired?" you ask, already knowing the answer, as a smile grows on your face. He looks pretty adorable half asleep beside you. "I can leave if you want."

"No, please don't go. It's been a long day and you're so warm, too. I just want you to stay with me, okay?"

"Okay... do you still want to watch the movie?" you ask.

"I don't think I'll be able to stay awake through the whole thing," he admits.

"So, what then?"

Atsumu fixes himself and sits up in the hopes of waking himself up a bit more. However, when he looks at you with those tired eyes, you can't help but turn to putty in his hands. Now that you think of it, you are getting pretty sleepy, too.

ATSUMU'S P.O.V.

Not long after Y/N tries to keep me awake by talking to me, she falls asleep herself. She lays with her head against the pillows on the couch. She looks so beautiful and peacefully laying there.

I don't know what comes over me, but seeing her laying there makes me lean over to kiss her on her cheek. However, as my lips are just about to reach her skin, she shifts her body and I end up making contact with her lips. My eyes widen and I pull away from her so fast that I nearly fall over onto the opposite end of the sofa.

Shit, shit, shit, I can't go around kissing my brother's girlfriend?! How could I be so stupid? Shit! I've got to get her out of here.

I quietly stand up and hover over Y/N. I take a deep breath and collect my thoughts before reaching under her and picking her up in my arms. I then carefully carry her into my room where I lay her down under my covers just as she had done the night before to me.

"I'm sorry, Y/N. I promise I didn't mean to-" Shit, I know exactly what I meant to do. I don't regret kissing her at all which makes me an even worse person.

I place my hands down on the bed and lean over the edge, trying to calm myself down, but I can't stop the thoughts swirling around in my brain. How can I be in love with my missing brother's girlfriend? He could be laying dead somewhere and I'm here in my bedroom with the girl who's in love with him. She's in love with him, not me.

"What's wrong with me?" I whisper aloud. "I love you, Y/N. Will that make you hate me?"

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