Carpe Diem • Scarlett Johansson x Y/N

Email

A WEEK LATER

It's been a week since Y/N died.

After they had Y/N's funeral, Scarlett has never left her house ever since. She doesn't go to her work; she canceled her schedule to be left all alone and to grieve.

She promised Y/N that she would try her best to be happy and to never close her heart. But it's hard; her time with Y/N wasn't enough. It will never be enough because she wants to spend a lifetime with Y/N.

But the thing is, she never regrets anything. She will do that all over again if she has the chance, as long as she gets to be with Y/N and see her smile and look into her eyes.

Ding

Scarlett's phone dinged.

The actress looked at it and was about to ignore it like she does with other calls and messages, but it's not from her friends, family, or management.

It's an email from Y/N.

Her heart started beating so fast upon seeing that and she immediately grabbed her laptop and opened her email there.

"Come fucking on, work faster." Scarlett mumbled, getting impatient as she looked at the loading sign. Her laptop works just fine but she's impatient right now since she's curious and scared at the same time.

How can Y/N send an email right now?

She opened Y/N's email and found a video attached to it. Her heart started beating so fast, it's the first time in a week that her heart beats like that.

She quickly clicked the video and pressed play.

"Hi, my love. You're in the kitchen right now, probably calling Lizzie and my sister because I told you to call them. I also told you that I'm hungry, but I'm not really hungry. I just need more time to make this video." Y/N smiles weakly. "I'm so sorry for leaving you, if only Time Stone is real, I will beg Dr. Strange to take me back in time and I will find you and confess my love, then maybe we'll have more time. But it's not real and it's impossible. So, I'm doing something similar to a Time Stone and that is: scheduled email. I'm doing some wizard shit for you, baby."

Scarlett chuckled, crying.

"I know that you promised that you'll try your best to be happy after my death, but I also know it will be hard since we didn't get much time together. So, I'm making this video for you and I will schedule this email to be sent to you in a week." Y/N said, "I want you to know how much I love you, Scarlett. I fucking love you so much and I hate that we didn't get much time. A week, weeks, a month, months, or even a year wouldn't be enough 'cause God knows how much I want to be with you forever. I love you so much, Scar. And these past few weeks have been the best days of my entire life. Thank you for sticking by my side. Thank you for making me the happiest woman in the world, thank you for the adventures, and most importantly, thank you for loving me. I'm sorry that I won't be there to hold your hand when life gets tough, I'm sorry that I won't be there to be with you through sadness and happiness. I'm so sorry."

Scarlett bit her bottom lip, letting out a sob.

"I just want you to know that I will always be with you. When you feel the wind, think that it's me, caressing your skin. Whenever you'd hear the sound of the ocean, think that it was me, telling you how much I love you. When you watch the sunset, think that it's me telling you and showing you that it's okay to watch the ending of something, that it can be beautiful too. When you see the moon, think that I'm also there, looking back at you and lighting up your darkness. And finally, every time the sun would wake you up, imagine that it's me, kissing your pain away and guiding you at every waking day."

Y/N smiles despite the tears streaming down her face.

"Carpe diem," Y/N said, showing her tattoo. "Always remember to seize the day, my love. Don't hide in your corner because I won't be there to pull you out. Seize the day and continue to see the beauty in life, spend every single day with joy and no regrets. My life will end but not yours, I know you'll bring me with you at whatever adventure you'll do, and that's enough for me. Live your life to the fullest, baby. And be happy because I am," She smiles. "I'm happy at where I am right now, and I know I'll be happy once I take my last breath because I'll be in your arms and it's all I want. To be in your arms for the last time."

Y/N smiles and took a deep breath, "So please, be happy. Seize the day and live with no regrets, and remember that I'll always be with you. I love you so much, Scarlett. See you in the next life."

Once the video ended, Scarlett sobbed.

It hurts like hell, but that video knocked some sense into her.

"Oh baby," Scarlett cried. "You always know what to say."

She wiped her tears and pressed play again, she'll watch this video as much as she want. And she'll probably watch it for the rest of her life, but she silently promised that she will live her life again. She'll fulfill her promise and she'll live with no regrets, she will seize the day and she will always carry Y/N in her heart, where the love of her life will live on. And that may not be enough for her, but she will continue to live and inspire others because that's what Y/N would want. And as always, she will do anything for Y/N. Anything, even if that means accepting that she's really gone now.