my wife

chapter 16

„Do you ever regret marrying me?", oh I thought he already fell asleep.

„Do I really have to answer that?"

„I won't know unless you tell me.", I sigh and say:„Fine, to answer your question. No, that never even crossed my mind."

„Really?"

„Why so surprised?"

„I thought you might regret it since I forced you into this.", guilt in his voice.

„Yes you did, but I never regretted it. I didn't know you when we got married so I was rather scared that I might've married a sociopath.", I giggle.

Fear was the only thing holding me back. I was doing it for my parents, I didn't hate them. I didn't blame them either. I was disappointed at first but the more I thought about everything the less I was disappointed. I just didn't know what was on the other side and that fear almost got me. But I wanted to repay my parents and this is huge for them, I couldn't let this opportunity slip away from them.

„You have no idea how happy that makes me. I know it was selfish to demand your hand in marriage, but I didn't have the time to get to know you and I couldn't let you get away either.", it's crazy how much I feel when I'm with this man. He makes me want to get to know every part of him, I want to get closer to him and I want to fall deeper than I already have.

„Now that we've spent more time together, I wouldn't dare to regret it. I'm glad you picked me.", I pause a second and then continue:„If I hadn't married you, I probably would've picked another jerk."

„Your ex's?", he's careful around this topic.

„Unfortunately all the guys I had something to do with. They all turned out to be cheating assholes. I was in a relationship 2 years ago for 3 years. I found out that he was cheating on me and only using me physically.", I really don't care about it anymore. These problems lie in my past and what surprised me, I got over them very quickly. That means I wasn't serious about them.

„I'm so sorry."

„Don't be. Anyways, I don't need to be worried, do I? Otherwise I should be questioning my taste in men.", he laughs straight in my face.

„Do I look like a cheater?", I raise a brow.

„Woah this was just a joke, honey, I would never cheat on you."

„Do you know what you look like?", he waits for the answer.

„A man-whore.", I smirk proudly. He pouts.

„I'm just stating out facts."

We kept talking for the rest of the night. It was one of the best and honest conversations I've ever had. We've talked about movies, actors, foods and other things.

He really surprised me.

I thought he was a sociopath who has a lot of money but he turns out to be an ordinary guy with immaculate taste. One of his favorite artists is Beyoncé like c'mon this is a catch.

He fell asleep at some point. I don't know how late it is, I just know that I've been staring at my husband for a long time.

Is he cold to everybody else to be professional or is it something else? He acts like he has no feelings until he sees me, he doesn't show me that side, Emilio isn't the heartless CEO in front of me. We're so similar yet very different. At times I doubt I can catch up to him, the difference between us seems to be a huge gap I could never cross, like he lives in another world. There're still so many things I don't know yet.

I'm not doubting us, not this marriage but I'm a little scared. I know we will work this out. 

I hope so...