NEVER

1.

late september

my forehead gently pressed against the cold window as my eyes took in the unusual scenery while we fastly past by. an assortment of huge glass buildings twinkled while the bridge lights we drove over decorated the night sky...

it was so beautiful....

a complete drastic change to what i was used to but it doesn't compare to new Orleans, Louisiana-my hometown...long story short, i'm currently being saved. saved from foster care where i spent 3 long years at and my sister is the one saving me. they continuously contacted her for 5 years and finally, she picked up. now here we are...i was told that i was 'severely troubled and mentally unstable.' to get adopted by a regular family because i've spent an additional 2 years in a mental institution, undergoing multiple sessions of therapy...

that's besides the point...

although, my sister was saving me. i find it hard to believe that she actually cares for me. our relationship always been rough and rocky due to jealousy and selfishness, not to mention she abandoned me and our mother at the most vulnerable time ever. i will always love her because she's my sister but i will never forgive her.

"hey..." quickly bringing me from my thoughts, i tucked a few strands of my hair behind my ear and focused my attention on my sister. "we're here."

i looked out the window and seen 2 brown beautifully built buildings, i didn't know which one was ours because they were both fairly close to each other.

"i'll grab the rest of your things, take my keys and get situated. our building is the left one and our apartment number is 4F. when you get inside make a left and your room is down that hall." so many instructions, i felt like my mind was going to explode. she tossed me her keys and me being awkward as ever, I missed, hearing the loud jingle against the car floor.

avoiding eye contact will probably ease the awkwardness in the air so i did just that as i picked up the keys and exited the car.

i did as told and made my way to our apartment, once i unlocked the front door i was immediately hit with the scent of apples, cinnamon, and pumpkin spice...the smell was very welcoming, i almost felt the fall spirit...

finally, i made it to my room and when i opened my door a small smile crept across my face.

"you like it ?" i jumped lightly at my sister's voice as she stood beside me with my box in her hand. i nodded lightly and took my box from her hands placing it on the floor. i then took another look...

my room was so pink-decorated with everything hello kitty. it warms my heart knowing that she remembered my obsession for hello kitty when we was young...i'm a changed person now but this room makes my inner child scream with joy....maybe...she did changed, maybe she actually does care for me.

my sister placed her hands on both of my shoulders and turned me towards her...that's when i got a better look at her.

sage...

she looked so much like dad and it made me cringe...i despised him and seeing her makes my mind cloud with all the fucked up shit they've done to us. this was such a bad idea, i should've denied the offer of her wanting to be my guardian. i already had one year left in foster care so i could've held my own until then.

i watched her expression contort as she stared into my eyes-her nose turning up in disgust.

i spoke too soon, she has not changed...