NEVER

3.

i stared at my mom as she faced her mirror, her silky straightened hair failing down her back touching the top of her butt. her black and red dress fitted ever so tightly against her body.

i craved to be as beautiful as her. she resembled someone i've never seen before and that's what made her unique.

"you look amazing mommy." i cheesed, leaning against the wall as i drunk a melon Ramune.

tonight, she was going on a date with a guy she have been talking to for a couple of months now. i never knew what he looked like but she always mentioned him alot. this was their first date.

"you think so ?" she questioned, looking at herself in the mirror again.

nodding lightly, i stood beside her.

"of course..."

"i love you my sweet daughter...be good for me. i might be long so don't wait up for me okay aina-ophelia ?" her eyes were clouded with tears and it confused me. was she that excited for her date ?

"i love you so much aina-ophelia, forever and always..."

"i love mew~"

"mew....."

"mew....."

my eyesight became blurry as i focused it on mi-na who was snuggled against me. whimpering lightly, i felt my face wet with tears.

just when i thought i stopped having these haunting dreams. they may not seem scary but they always emotionally scarred me. this dream was from the day i last seen my mom, it seems like if i tried to forget everything, these dreams will always come back to me.

gosh i miss her so much...

mi-na rubbed against my chest before looking up at me with her icy blue eyes causing me to realize something.

today was tuesday and i had school.

ugh !

i forcefully dragged myself off my bed and made my way to my bathroom. i did my usual hygiene making sure i took my antidepressants before walking into my closet.

i didn't feel happy today nor did i feel pretty, i guess i'll dress according to how i'm feeling. that's the only way i'll feel comfortable.

i decided to wear a black oversized men shirt that had a big skull encrusted in ruby red gems in the middle of it and black true religion oversized men jeans, on my feet, i wore my black cat 4s. as for my hair, i slicked it down in a tight low bun and swung my bookbag on my back.

walking into the living room with mi-na trailing behind me, i realized that sage was no where in the apartment..

i don't understand why i was brought to new york if she wasn't gonna give an actual fuck about me. honestly, i've been having high expectations for her, sage never cared about me when i was younger so why would she now ?

i just have to accept the fact that she's always going to leave and that i'll always  be alone...

"bye love...please be careful today and don't get lost. okay?" i cooed kissing the top of her head before leaving out not bothering to eat breakfast.