NEVER

F.24

resting my head against the cold metal bars of solace's fire escape, my eyes lingered on my dark and empty room....

that place seemed like a strange and distant memory now and i wish it didn't have to be that way.

i miss it there and as much as i hate to admit it, i miss sage. i wish she'd be my big sister and love me how she's supposed to. if this was true, i'd be so much happier than i am now.

gosh, i miss it there so much but i just don't want to be lonely....

"wha'chu doing out here ? it's cold." my lips stretched into a smile once solace climbed onto the fire escape to sit next to me.

"i know, i'm just thinking...." i answered, looking down at mi-na who was asleep in my arms—her head nestled to my chest.

"can i hear what's on your mind ?" like a feather, solace effortlessly pulls me onto his lap and i felt myself warm up by the second. "y'know....when i first met you, you worried me alot. i know you been through shit cause' i been through shit. i know it's hard but can we start opening up and help each other out ? you mean the world to me angel and i don't ever wanna catch you dealing with shit alone again okay ?"

my heart tugged a bit once i seen how serious he was.

"uh-um....okay." i blushed lightly feeling his fingers push my curly hair behind my ear. "i was just thinking about my apartment and my room....i miss it there sometimes but i don't want to go back, i like being here with you."

i didn't want him to convince me to go back there, i wouldn't go even if he did. although i miss sage, i couldn't bare to see or speak to her.

"if you ever wanna' go back, i'll come and i'll stay with you. i remember how lonely it used to be over there."

sometimes i wonder how does he do it ? he never fails to say the right things to me....making me fall harder and harder for him, every single day.

placing my hands on the apple of his cheeks, i began to gaze at him, admiring how handsome he is.

oh i'm so disgustingly in love with this man.

"you're so beautiful angel....even when you cry." he mumbled lightly, making me realize that i was actually crying....sigh, why is it so easy for me to cry ? 

sparks ignited throughout my body once solace pressed his soft lips against mines, instantly deepening the kiss so passionately, i fell in love with him all over again.

is it bad that i never want to go back to my old life ? that i want to leave everything behind and stay with him....forever.

i feel so content here.

....but i'll feel completely content once i find the perfect time to finally confess and tell solace i love him.

maybe now's the right time and then we'll have sex right after.

"you wanna' come tagging with me ? we're going high tonight..." sigh, maybe not. i spoke too soon.

"mhmm~" i hummed lightly, fixing my robe. i got up, instantly feeling the warmth engulf me once i followed solace inside. "i'm bringing mi-na with us."