NEVER

F.17

my back was gently pressed against the stage's floor as i faced an enthusiastic gisela.

"relaax nana, you look so anxious." she's right, i thought i could mask how nervous i was, though it was obvious how sweaty my hands were. it felt as if it was my first time watching solace and bastard perform and i love the anticipation, it made my stomach twirled with every second that crept by.

"i'm actually so excited gisela." i expressed as she held my hands, pulling me into a hug. my eyes scanned around the venue looking at the small crowd who were just like me-curious and excited to see solace and bastard. there was over 300 of us here, although it didn't fill capacity, the amount of love and support radiating off of us was enough to fill the venue. "thank you for being here with me, even though you didn't have too."

"i told you, i'll do anything for you....besides, they're beginning to grow on me now, just a little, so i don't mind." snickering lightly, gisela kissed my forehead before we pulled away.

suddenly, the venue lights went dim and transitioned from a bright white to a dark red. yelps and screams of the crowd erupted causing me to immediately faced the stage and plaster the biggest smile on my face.

"aah it's startingg." i excitedly gasped, clasping my hands together. i placed my hands on my chest watching solace and bastard come out together.

"wassup brooklyn !" bastard shouted, tightly gripping his mic. "y'all niggas may not know us but i'm bastard and that's my best friend gnarly and we're both underground artists." my eyes locked on solace and i watched as he puffed on a cigarette, his eyes wandering the crowd before a smile rested on his lips.

"thanks for coming out tonight. we're gonna' perform a couple of songs, some of you might know it, some might not, either way turn the fuck up and go fuckin' crazy." cheesing widely, those gold grills glistened under the dark red lights and for a second, i thought my knees were going to give out.

solace looked so handsome up there-unreal as if he was straight out of a magazine. if i wasn't me, i'd be so jealous of me....

the floor began to rumble once bluddy played a very familiar instrumental causing flashbacks of cj's house party to cloud my mind.

i watched solace in awe as he grabbed a black spray can from the dj booth and shook it while taking puffs of his cigarette. he began to tag his territory-spraying gnarly & bastard bold on the stage's wall causing the crowd to cheer extremely loud.

"can he go one day without vandalizing something ?" gisela jokingly uttered into my ear and i couldn't help the inaudible laugh that left my mouth.

i've grown to love how he wasn't scared to take risks or how he didn't care about the outcome. that's what made him special, to me-even though, he would be considered a rebel.

everything started to move in slow motion once bastard's verse started. everyone jumped in sync while i stayed still....my eyes lingering on solace. i was starstruck.

watching him dominate the stage, put me in a trance. it always amazed me how he can control the crowd so effortlessly....he's like no other and i cannot stress how much i can boast about him.

i'm so in love....

it felt as if my heart was slowly stopping once solace kneeled in front of me. his eyes immediately locked on mines while he took a few puffs of his cigarette before placing it between my lips. that sweet cherry taste simmered on my tongue as i inhaled deeply, leaning against the stage. after taking one last pull, i ashed his cigarette on the edge of the stage then placed it on my right ear.

once solace's verse started, i molded with the crowd-carelessly dancing like i won the lottery. it felt good as if i was letting go of everything, as if i didn't have a care in the world....am i experiencing concert high ?

i pressed my body against gisela's once i felt her arms around my waist and instantly, our body's swayed along to the mysterious instrumental.

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"....just finished our first ever show, at the house of vans in brooklyn. mad niggas came out, if you didn't....you're a dickhead." bastard's voice was faint as me and gisela maneuvered through the small crowd that decorated the backstage. "missing any monumental shit we do is crazy."

as usual, my eyes instantly landed on solace. his back was pressed against the wall as he mindlessly scrolled on his phone.

"you did amazing." i cheered, running into his arms. solace was sweaty but i didn't care, i let his warmth immediately hugged me like a glove as my hands held his cheeks. i repeatedly kissed his forehead before fully kissing him on the lips. our kiss only lasted about 2 minutes apparently, it was too long for others. "i really enjoyed myself...."

"y'all look at them." bastard teased.

the whole time i've been here, i didn't think to see who bas was talking to.

looking in his direction, i noticed he was on his phone, recording a video....or even on instagram live with his followers ! must he document everything ?

"mans finally has a smile on his face since our show ended....i'm telling you it's his lucky charm yo, probably the reason why our show went so good." facing his back towards us, bastard held his phone up and adjusted his fitted capturing all three of us in the frame. i shyly hid my face in the crook of solace's shoulder.

i still try to conceal my identity from their followers and fans. even if they still don't know it's me or have a guess it's me, it's much better if things are kept private.

placing his hand on my head, solace roughed up my straightened hair that was sweated out before kissing it.

"mmcht, who else would it be ? of course it's my lucky charm." he boasted into the camera, slapping bas's brim afterwards. "y'know what? we gotta find you someone, i know you get lonely too."

"psh ! i got mines right there." i goofily grinned watching bas direct the camera towards gisela who held a light scowl on her face. "ms. hispanic beauty, she's special and i know that cause' she's ao's girl....look at her, she want me so bad."

snickering lightly, gisela fixed her hair and lipgloss while leaning on the wall behind us as he recorded her.

"in your dreams..."

"sexy ass....i need'a go to sleep right noww." bas dragged before putting the camera back on him....he looked at us through the camera for a moment before smiling and tackling all of us in a bear hug. "look at us, my family....i love y'all so much."