NEVER

5.

sunlight shined heavily through my sheer white curtains and into my room causing me to squint my eyes.

it was the middle of the week and somehow that kept me enthusiastic—anticipating the weekend. i know it's only my third day at school but i was tired of it already.

crawling out of bed, i nakedly made my way to my bathroom noticing that mi-na wasn't following after me today.

she's probably wandering around the neighborhood again...

that means....she won't be here when i leave so i can't tell her i love her. i'm already starting my day off on the wrong foot and to say that i was feeling a little happy, it was rare for me to feel this way.

i have to admit....gnarly calling me an angel last night plays a big part in my happiness. no matter his situation, it's nice to hear someone tell you something that's genuine. i'm so used to the opposite, every little good thing feels big to me.

well....i'm gonna at least pretend that it was genuine. calling another girl an angel while in a relationship, it's obvious that he didn't mean it. i know he calls all the girls that.

i decided my outfit was going to consistent of a black tight fitted skims dress and a black oversized men puffer jacket. on my feet, i wore basic brown UGGs. i left my hair in its curly wild state and applied some lip gloss and mascara.

opening the door to my room, sage stopped in her tracks as she was making her way to my room.

"i was just about to come in there..." i sighed deeply, my face instantly contorting into a mug. "take this..."

in her left hand was a cup of water and something else was closed in the other. curious began to fill me as i shifted all my weight to one leg.

"what's that ?"

"your new antidepressants." placing 2 pink pills in my hand, sage then handed me the cold glass of water.

"wha-you changed my prescription sage ?" i questioned, looking at the unusual colored pills in my hand. there was absolutely no reason for her to change to change my antidepressants without consulting with me first. i obtained them myself so it should be my choice on what to do with my medicine.

having sage as my guardian was the most fucked up decision ever made in life...

"i'm not taking these..." softly mumbling, i shoved the pills into my coat pocket. i tried walking past her but sadly she blocked my path.

"i'm not letting you go until you take those pills aina-ophelia..."

"why did you change my prescription without my permission sage ? why are you interfering with things you don't care about !.." i snapped filling a wave of anger wash over me....nosiness is one thing i hate the most. sage has no reason to be in my business, she can't help me. she makes everything worse, she's the reason why i'm this way !

"i do care about you aina-ophelia, that's why you're here right now !" sage exclaimed. "i'm seeing no progression in you, you're still sad...you're still fucking depressed aina-ophelia. what the fuck am i gonna do if you cut yourself to dea–"

"move on with your fucking life just like you did when dad used to beat the shit out of mommy..." i softly mumbled, taking my new medication dry. i decided to comply today, me fussing and arguing with her isn't getting me nothing but a stained face and my energy drained....i'm already tired. "i'm done talking to you, i'm gonna be late for school...."