Jug and Finesse

Culture

Author's Note: Y'all should really listen to Tink's song - Ratchet Commandments. I put it up for y'all.

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Shantii

"Cut the bullshit what did you call me over here for?" I asked.

I crossed my arms over my chest and resisted all of my urges. I wanted him to tell me exactly what he wanted from this, us. Where did he see this going.

"I'm sorry," he mumbled, before dropping his head low.

I blinked.

How can you apologize and not even look at me? It wasn't genuine in the slightest.

"What do you mean you're sorry? Oh, that thing with you and Heaven? Why are you apologizing? You're single, you can do whatever the hell you want right?" I asked, tilting my head to the side.

He looked defeated, like he was getting ready to give up. I wanted him to just fight for me. I knew I was acting like a bitch but I was hurt.

"No, that 'thing' with Heaven was nothing. Sure we had something before but she doesn't mean shit to me now. She kissed me and I don't know..I should've pulled back but...man I don't know. I can't even sit up here and make up no damn lie on why I stood there cause I don't know why," he said, throwing up his hands.

I appreciated his honesty but the truth hurts. Now, he has me confused.

Now, I think he still has feelings for that tacky bitch, and it's okay if he does. I can eventually get over it but I wanted to know for certain this was what he meant.

"So you're telling me, you still have feelings for her?" I asked, trying my hardest to sound like it didn't affect me. I even threw in a small shrug, but my voice clearly said otherwise.

He looked up at me as if what I said was so far fetched. As if she wasn't sucking his face off not too long ago.

"Hell no. Sure, she used to be nice looking, decent and shit but then she started deep throating the whole crew and you already know I ain't down with that shit. My boy told me how her hoe ass tried to fuck with him, always sending him nudes and shit, it was too much," he said shaking his head.

The waiter came over to us and asked for our orders. I didn't have a chance to look at our menus, so we asked him to come back in a few minutes. He nodded before leaving.

I opened the laminated menu and saw all of the choice items. I chose the super hot wings, fries and a Sprite. Jaylon picked a steak, mashed potatoes and a root beer.

When the waiter came back, we read off our orders and he told us it would be ready in about 20 minutes.

Twenty minutes was a long ass time, especially in this situation. I hoped it wouldn't get awkward because I didn't come for unnecessary silence.

I came to hash out whatever issues we had and to hear his side of the story.

"So what you been up to?" He asked me, giving me a bright smile.

"I went to the gym today, me and the girls. Your girlfriend was there too, talking shit per usual," I rolled my eyes.

His smile dimmed before he sucked his teeth, "Here you go with this shit man."

I laughed and picked with my necklace. I felt his eyes on me, without looking up, I joked, "Is there something you see that you like?"

"There sure is," I looked up just in time to catch his wink.

I felt my cheeks heat up and let go of the necklace. Just then I remembered what happened last Friday in the school parking lot.

"Oh yeah, come here," I motioned with my fingers for him to come closer. He inched towards me.

I pulled him closer and whispered in his ear, "You sell drugs?" I asked. I didn't feel the need to beat around the bush and he shouldn't expect me to.

He tilted his head and looked at me sideways. He looked like he was forming a lie before he just came out with it,

"Yeah, I do," he answered.

"And you didn't tell me because...?" I asked, trailing off, waiting for him to fill in the blanks.

"For one, I just met you like a month ago. You don't just tell someone that out of the blue, that type of shit scares people off. Besides it don't even matter," he shrugged.

"It doesn't scare me, if that's what you're concerned about. I just didn't know," I pressed.

"You didn't know? I thought you would've caught word from somebody else already. My bad then," he ran his fingers through his scalp.

The way he just assumed somebody else would tell me, let me know that mad people already knew about the shit he was doing. I hope he's being careful, you can't trust everyone.

"Mm regardless you could've told me. Want to know how I found out?" I asked, crossing my arms.

"How Shantii?" he blew a curl out of his face and looked at me. I could tell my attitude was blowing his but I didn't care.

"I found out by seeing you pass that shit to some boy in the parking lot. I mean, damn Jay. If I seen it, I'm sure anyone else could've too. You need to be careful," I smacked my lips.

I could tell they weren't the niggas in charge, not by a long shot. They were more like the niggas who followed their boss requests and sold it on the block.

Had to be.

Because that act they pulled in the parking lot? Anybody could see. That's a rookie move, they must be new to the streets cause from what I hear, one slip up like that and the blocks hot.

"You worried about me?" he smiled, grabbing my hand from the table.

"Yes, I am. I don't want you to get caught," I tightened my grip.

"I won't," he promised, tilting my head so I was looking into his eyes. He pressed his forehead against mines and held on to my other hand.

I knew that if I decided to be with Jaylon on that level that I would be putting myself in a dangerous situation, but this feeling.

This feeling I have running through the course of my veins as he pulls me closer to him and pecks my lips, makes it all worth it.

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When the food came, we were throwing down. My wings were extra spicy, to the point where my nose was running. It tasted so good though, so I continued to eat.

Overall I was enjoying my meal and Jaylon being here to eat with me, made it that much better.

He kept making jokes to make me laugh and it worked. I don't think I've been this happy in a long time.

This peacefulness was so serene it made me wonder why I ever doubted taking things to the next level with him.

I paused mid-laugh.

"For clarification purposes, you and Heaven are completely over? No feelings? Nothing?" I asked again.

"I don't know what was going through my head that day, or why I just stood there. But I can assure you it wasn't because I still had feelings for her, at all. I promise," he answered.

I smiled and bit my lip, but one word escaped.

"Good."

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