Never Safe

Chapter Twenty-Nine

You had one more nightmare, and you didn't go back to sleep again after it. Neither did Bucky. You were both awake since just after six am.

Bruce came by at half eight. By that time, Peter was awake but not Natasha. Peter was sat on his phone; you were cuddled up to Bucky under his arm. You were all quiet.

"Good morning. How did you sleep?" Bruce wondered.

You guiltily looked down into your lap, believing it was your fault for keeping everyone up.

"We've had better nights" Bucky answered.

"How are you feeling y/n?"

You shrugged.

"Good? Bad?" Bruce persisted.

You simply shrugged again, less movement than before.

"Use your words y/n/n" Bucky said.

"I don't know" you mumbled.

"Did something happen?" Bruce asked.

"She had a couple nightmares. I think she's tired, and maybe a little embarrassed" Bucky said quietly, as if you weren't right next to him and couldn't hear what he was saying. You didn't care, anyway.

"Okay. Do you know if the medicine worked much yesterday?"

"Yeah, she seemed a lot better."

"Good. I'll give her the same dose today. Hopefully, she'll be back to feeling a hundred percent in no time."

Bucky smiled down at you. You were zoned out and weren't paying attention, so Bucky looked up again.

"Thanks for doing this Bruce."

"No problem. Are you coming to join everyone for breakfast?"

"I think we're just gonna eat in here."

"Okay. I'm going to get something to eat myself, then I'll come back and get her medicine."

"Thank you.

Bruce nodded and walked out.

"I, uh, I need to get back to Aunt May this morning" Peter spoke up.

"When are you planning on leaving?"

"Oh. Um. Like, now?"

"Okay... y/n, do you wanna say goodbye to Pete?"

Peter came over and stood beside your bed. He held your hand. "Bye y/n/n."

"Y/n?" Bucky nudged you.

You held Peter's hand properly, stroking your thumb over the back of his hand. But you didn't say anything, or even look at him. Peter didn't mind. He bent over and kissed your cheek.

"Bye guys" he smiled at Bucky and Nat. They said goodbye and Peter left.

Bucky waited a minute before talking to you. "What do you want for breakfast, y/n?" He got no response. "Come on, y/n/n, I need you to talk to me."

Nat spoke when you didn't. "You know what, I think I'm gonna go freshen up." She stood up from her bed and approached yours. Bucky looked up at her and she kissed him. "I'll leave you two alone for a bit" she whispered. Bucky smiled gratefully at her. She left too.

It was just you and Bucky.

"Y/n-"

"I wanna go home."

"Hm?"

"I don't wanna be here anymore. In this bed. In this place where I don't know my way around so if you leave me again I don't know where to find you" your eyes began tearing up.