Dead Fighter

9. I'm not okay, right?

Flashback/POV (part 4)

That night, November 25th 2012, she passed away. On our way home, I saw it. I figured out that night, I can see the stairway to Heaven. I'm a psychic and I can't explain it. That one night changed my fucking life, good somewhat but mostly made it shittier.

Flashback/POV

I am sick as a damn dog and I have to take care of my brother's dogs. He has 3 now and I can't handle it anymore. Aeila loves her auntie Rens so much already and it hadn't been a full day. It has to be a mother instinct feeling a puppy gets. So I fed them and took them out, Aeila kinda listens well to be a new pup who is like 1-2 months old. She is jealous of my puppy and her siblings too.

All I wanted to do today was sleep yet I didn't get to. I have been trying to catch up to 8 days worth of my story (yes, I talked about my story in my story :P). My phone is so close to dying and it needs charge but I need to finish!!!

I have walked Aeila like an hour ago again. I am starving to death and barely have anything to eat. My throat is hurting and strand feeling. My nose bleeds. I'm congested. I have to hear Kailer talk about how he is dying from Covid and HE ISN'T! He isn't used to getting sick so.

I found out my sister's ex boyfriend is actually in bad shape in another state's hospital. He's in the ICU and doing terrible. He was missing for 8 months but his family thought it was because he was an adult who wanted to have fun. He actually was being tortured by guys he lived with and they nearly killed him. I am going to Hell because I laughed....

I'm not that bad I swear but he was terrible to my sister and was a pedophile towards me. So I laughed in shock I guess??? I ain't too sure really. It was an automatic thing I guess, I would wish torment against Kel but I never said death. Karma is a bitch. I have come to terms that I'm pretty sure I'm allergic to dogs. I start itching when I'm around them. I even do it with my own but I'm not getting rid of him because I love him and he makes me very much happy.

Tears are so close of exploding out of my eyes because all I want is my god damn mama to talk to and all she is worried about is her bad day and being a fucking cunt to me. I FUCKING HATE EVERYONE!!

So my mama is in a pissy mood so she takes it out on me and she made me break my no crying record. I was a week and a day well was a day clean but no I made a week. I can't do this God damn shit anymore. I'm going to bed! Fuck it!

*Please enjoy this, I know it fucking sucks but I'll try for y'all again*