i find myself struggling constantly to take control of my own thoughts.
i scream and lash out at myself, hoping to frighten my own mind into submission,
but i forget, every single time,
that an animal is at its most dangerous when it is hurt and scared, and has nowhere to go.
i find myself struggling constantly to take control of my own emotions.
i curse and punch my own reflection, hoping to show it that I am the one in control,
but i forget, every single time,
that i taught myself to fight back, to kick until it's over, and bite the hands that beat me.
