she asked me "why are you always seeking conflict?".
it was late, and we've had some to drink, maybe more than we should.i bet you'd like her.
she crept closer to me, hands unrelenting and eyes even more.
"why are you always jumping at the first sight of a fight?"my hands felt numb, my tongue even more, and it took me some time to answer.
you'd want me to.
still, I can't say:
how could I not?
my father taught me self-sacrifice. he didn't teach me self-preservation.
my mother taught me servitude. she didn't teach me liberation."why does your mouth water at the thought of a war? is it a death wish? or some savior complex?"
she's smart. you'd love her.
i clench jaw and fists, out of fear.
i swipe drops of tears and beers.
i steady breath and heart, barely.my father taught me usefulness.
my mother taught me loyalty.
what else would I be,
if not a sacrifice?
my father taught me to be unwavering.
my mother taught me to be unquestioning.
what else could I be,
if not a soldier?