at the end of the day,
I don't mind living vicariously.
I don't mind being parasitically happy.
if all it takes for me to be happy
is to watch the happiness shine on
someone else's face,
I'm okay with it.
sure, these are fleeting moments.
but show me a permanent state of the self,
i dare you.
sure, this happiness never seems to
hold onto me strong enough.
but it seems to vanish just as quickly as
this weight in my chest does.
at the end of the day,
I don't think I mind it very much.
it's enough to keep me going,
for now.
it's enough to make me stand
on my own two feet,
and smile a little, for today.
when tomorrow comes,
all I must do is pray that the
dark vanishes as quickly as
the laughter.
