Surrendered

Chapter Nine: Casino

After training I found a black clock mounted onto the wall in my quarters, I smiled to myself. I'd done something that Kylo had approved of. I felt butterflies as I thought about pleasing him, is this what stockholm syndrome was? Although I hated him and was desperate to be on my home planet with my family it brought me a weird sense of satisfaction to impress him.

My evening flew by now that I could keep a track of time, and I could sleep deeply without worrying that I would be late tomorrow.

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I awoke to the data pad alerting me to a message from Kylo, training was canceled for today. We were heading off the ship on a mission.

This was more exciting to me than it would normally be, I was hopefully going to go onto a planet. The message had told me to pack an overnight bag and an evening dress.

I decided to be wicked and pick the silky black floor length dress with a slit up the leg, and a slightly low cut front and paired it with a pair of black shiny heels with red soles. I threw in toiletries and included make up, enough to do a simple evening look.

I then waited for someone to collect me, and I was glad to see it was Ushar, we'd built up a bit of a friendship during training and the walks around the ship. The other knights still wouldn't speak to me properly yet.

"Do you know where I'm going?" I asked, I was eager to find out.

"I do."

"So?" I could tell he was being an ass, so I tried to dig into his mind but every way I tried to push my way through I found it blocked.

"Stop." He ordered. "Ren has told me not to tell you."

"Are you coming?" I asked hopefully.

"No, we have some rare time off ship away from Ren." I could feel his excitement for this building, and his anticipation to finally lay with a woman again.

"So will you be enjoying the delightful pleasures of the whore house?" I joked.

"You know us all too well Miss Aurora."

"Has it been that long? You're like a horny teenager." I knew I could potentially be overstepping a line with him here.

"Ren has been preoccupied, Snoke keeps him busy. So there's little chance for us to have time away from him." Ushar explained, but I could feel that he was holding something back from me.

"Am I going to enjoy my mission?" I asked eagerly. "If at least you can't tell me where I'm going, will I enjoy it?"

"Maybe." He enjoyed frustrating me.

We turned into the hangar where Kylo's command shuttle was waiting for me, I boarded and saw Kylo waiting for me in the cockpit. To my surprise a second seat had been added for me.

"Is that for me?" I asked.

"Yes, get in. I've been waiting for you." Great, he was impatient today, just what I needed on my first solo mission with him. We sat in awkward silence as we took off, the motion making me feel nauseous.

He broke the silence first.

"I don't want you riding with my knights." I nodded. "Snoke has willed for you to be joining me on more of my future missions. I want to keep an eye on you, and make sure no harm comes to you."

I felt a weird urge of care and love, it was a peculiar notion. He was so confusing, I usually got a feeling of deep frustration and hatred for my existence. But then he shows slight glimpses of actually liking me, but I knew it wouldn't be long before he wanted to obliterate me into a black hole again. His flying became even more erratic than usual.