Rewrite Time

17

"I don't think many people realize how strong you are" I smile "no one calls me strong Roger used to tell me I was weak for my decisions if he was in my place all the things he'd do" Fred laughs

"He doesn't get to judge your decisions" I look at Fred "why?" He smiles "because he was one of them" I laugh

Fred leans in

And rest his forehead on mine "I wish I was one of them" I nod "Fred we can't" he nods and pulls away

"Nero is really the best" I smile and nod I wish things were different but me and Roger have history I can't just leave him

Right?

"How's Katie?" Fred shrugs "she and I aren't together I guess it was just a hook up type thing" I nod "are you happy you lost your virginity to her?"

He stands still for a moment "not sure I didn't really have any expectations and it wasn't anything special I do wish I knew her better or gained a better connection"

I nod

"No that's a lie, I didn't lose my virginity to her I didn't want you to think I sleep around but I lost it a year ago to Angelina" I look at him "I thought Angelina liked George you said you guys didn't" he nods "she does like George we don't do that anymore"

"Did you feel a connection with anyone you slept with?" He holds my hand "why are you asking?"

"I was thinking about that stuff better connection... so sex didn't make you feel closer to her?"

He turns to look at me "why do you want to know" I look forward "I feel distant from Roger and was thinking maybe we just need a better connection and it keeps playing in my head maybe this could fix us"

"Sex fixes nothing" I shrug "how can that be true if it was me and you in a situation your saying sex couldn't fix it no matter what"

"Asteria... I'm not answering that" I nod

"Do you know the feelings I have for you or are we pretending they aren't there" I look towards him "Fred I feel so much for you but I can't leave Roger he's been in my life so long theres history with us" he nods

"Tell me you don't like me then" my eyes become glassy "it would be a lie" he smiles sadly "I wish I hated you" I nod "same"

We both laugh

"Do you believe in solemates?" I nod "yes but they can be platonic they are someone that no matter what your paths will cross and you'll find yourselves together wether your friends or enemies or lovers you will always find your way to each other because your soul needs them"

He smiles "who's yours then?" I smile "maybe Cedric but I'm not sure I might not have found them yet but I think it's Pansy" he nods "what about Luna or everyone else"

I smile "that's the thing I think only in this life I could find them only this time I was lucky and it's a one time experience I won't get again and I should hold onto while it last"

I look at Nero "we're gonna head back that cool?" Yes "did you like Fred" Nero studies him then gives me an answer

Yes

Wow he's only ever really met my mom and Tyler he loved my mom never said yes or no on Tyler always hit the maybe so this was amazing and he hates Roger

Fred's so amazing

"Fred you ready?" He nods "goodbye Nero goodbye..." he turns to me "what's Antipodean Opaleye and the unicorn or the nine-tailed fox or the Herbridean Black names?"

"Roger named the nine tail Marc but the others don't have a name yet but I did promise Percy he could name the unicorn and I want Cedric to be able to name one and then in the future if I ever get a Occamy I want to name it lilac and if I get a Nundu then Tyler gets to name it" Fred smiles