Rewrite Time

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Aurors were everywhere getting information and I was completely still

The aurors were fast they assumed this was a attempt from the wife of a deatheater but this was a woman who gave up

They spoke to me fast saying who the godparents were and who would look after the child and they asked questions till I heard a familiar voice

"I'll take it from here"

Hairy

Potty wee potter

I look at Harry

"What questions do you need me to answer?"

"Did she try harming you?"
"I don't think so"
"Did she do this for deatheaters?"
"No"
"Did Tyler ask this of her?"
"No"
"What was this?"
"A suicide"

He sighs "only two more questions" he puts everything away and looks at me "are you okay"

Before I answer I hear Fred

He runs over to check on me

"They came by and asked a million questions and the girls had just arrived Ivan is with the Aurors figuring out who he goes to and the girls are with George he says thanks for ice cream"

I nod coldly and Fred picks up on this instantly

"What's up?" I shake my head "we can talk later"

Harry is waiting and I turn back to him for the last questions "we understand this might be a difficult topic and you've given us a lot but you mentioned a few deatheaters assaulting you sexually we have a list of those we've captured and those we haven't in a booklet if we give you one could you go over it and highlight all the deatheaters who did that to you?"

I nod "yeah no problem" small problem I'm shaking

"And your other question?"

"Are you okay"
"Yes"

Who asks someone that?

I walk back to the shop with Fred when everything was done

"What did you want to talk about?"

"I thought I was getting better I thought I was healing and I'm trying the best I can but it's not enough and I'm crumbling"

"We can fix this Teri"

"No no we can't im not that person anymore im not the girl you knew I'm not the person and I don't know what I've become I'm a monster how did I not realize this"

"Teri-"

"Stop Fred stop, those girls are the only people who know me now you all look at the person I was before and she died. To be able to get all the anger I needed for all my power she broke and she crumbled and she died and then I was still and I was unmoving and numb and a living corpse. I was nothing. Till my heart was jumpstarted and now I'm still the walking corpse that won't change but I'm also here now and none of you see that"

"What don't I see?"

"ME! You don't see it no one does I can't do this Fred I'm such a mess! Everything I do is a mess, everything just everything. Right now I can't fix us because I will drown trying to keep afloat and I can't do that, we can't do that! We have two beyond words can describe extraordinary daughters and I don't want them to see me pull you down in the water"

He's silent for a while

"What should we do then"

"I need time I need to heal all this broken shit, im sorry for having sex with you and making you think everything was okay and also sorry for using you for sex that was wrong I just was hurt so bad in that dungeon and wanted to feel someone who wouldn't hurt me like that and would let me say no or yes"