Rewrite Time

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After the girls are exhausted I help Fred and George get them back to the joke shop while still getting giggles out of them

"Mommy can you please please sleep in my bed with me as I nap" I kiss Rosalina's head "duh I'll never leave your side sweet girl"

"Me too I want mommy nap snuggles" I nod and kiss Emily "yes definitely I'll snuggle you both so much you'll be sick of me"

"Never could happen"

We get the girls back and they pull me running up and Rosalina pulls both of us to her bed and we all get under the covers and Emily lays on top of me and Rosalina rest her head on my shoulder and has her arms wrapped around me

I keep my watchful eye on them and the door creaks open with Fred

He looks at us and smiles

"You make them happy"
"Thanks" I whisper
"Emily could sleep through anything and Rosalina is sometimes a heavy sleeper but if I wake her up she'll go right back to sleep"

"They are so perfect"

"How are you doing Asteria honestly"

"Honestly? Honestly I'm doing horrible but I can't let that... I can't let it interfere with other things"

"The girls?" I nod "with everyone I hate people seeing me as weak so i have to be fine"

"For a minute I thought I lost my Teri but nope the dummy is still here" I gasp "jerk"

"Always, your not weak Asteria you don't have to be okay. Everyone missed you and loves you we understand if this is difficult"

"What we're the girls first words"

"Emily said dada and Rosalina said.... she said rose"

"Rose?" He nods "Layla had said it a lot when talking about you and Rosa is in her name the word comes up a lot so she repeated"

"Who walked first?"

"Rosalina but only because when Emily tried she pulled her or would push her till she got it then she started letting Emily try" awwww

"Favorite memory of you all?"

"When they were born but based off what your asking baking a birthday cake with them was fun and silly and I liked watching this morning the teeth monster running after the girl"

"Yeah that was fun"

"You should've seen your dad he looked so happy" I bet he was especially after our conversation

"I'm sorry Fred"
"Sorry?"

"I know I probably already said it but I'm sorry if I found another way we would've had a son and still been a family"

"It's not your fault I understand that"
"Great then could you explain it to me I seem to be lost, because I don't understand it I understand nothing in my life right now"

The girls turn over and I stand up slowly tucking them in and then sit on the ground in the girls room with Fred

We talk and talk

"Would you ever want more kids?" Fred looks at me for a second "I'm okay with the girls but that's because who their mother is if that woman wanted more kids I'd do anything for that to happen and if she never wanted more kids fine"

"You never thought about kids with anyone else" he shakes his head "just you your the woman I wanted to marry your the girl I love"

I lean forward and kiss him and he kisses me I wrap my hands around him and it feels like electricity