Rewrite Time

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He's at St Mungo's

Should I visit?

What would I say 'hey brother remember I said I'd torture you in life and death well how are you doing?'

I wonder if he hates me

Well obviously he hates me, he hated me before I paralyzed him and I killed the only man he saw as a father and now I know he had a kid while I was gone. Also a wife I think... is he married to Katie?

He'll never be able to hold the kid again

Maybe I should of just killed him

Being able to only see my children... actually that doesn't sound so bad at least I'd see them grow up and compared to me never seeing them grow or take their first steps I like that idea a lot better

Hmm

That hurts, never getting to see the girls first steps or first words and then Cadmus never grew up. I've had three kids and I've never seen a single one as a toddler or even take those first steps I suddenly want to cry

Nope I can't cry

At least not yet

Layla has just got us got us to 12 Grimmauld Place

Anytime I come here I smile

I think of the time I came back to life, and the place my feet took me was here. I wasn't thinking I just needed my father to hold me and tell me everything would be okay

And right now I think I need that again

Layla and I walk in and dad is sitting with Remus in an old band shirt laughing he's ready for bed but he's waiting up for us

"There's my girls!" He smiles and stands fast to hug us. Remus follows close behind

I hug both and then hug dad a second time for a lot longer

I think dad noticed I needed him right now so I felt his hand motion for Layla and Remus to go off and he'd deal with me

"What's up Laria" I laugh "you still call me that?"

"Always your my little girl my baby" he moves my hair out of my face then scrunches it up

"Dad! Why do that you fix my hair just to mess it up?" He smiles "duh"

Jerk

"So what's wrong little one"

"Little one?" He rolls his eyes "would you prefer ms.diversion?"

"I'm upset because I've had three kids and never saw a single one grow up or take their first steps"

He looks at me and sits down

"Do you know what your first word was?" I shake my head and then softly say "no" he smiles "you said 'pick' and Layla said 'no' and Tyler said mum"

"Pick?" He nods "you wanted a pickle we told you no and Layla then said no. Tyler spoke way later and I wasn't there for it but Salina was and she didn't tell me till a week later when he started talking some more and I shouted that he said his first words and she told me it had happened a week prior"

"What's the point dad?" He pats the seat for me to sit "things happen that you can't change but if you keep looking to the negative it will ruin all the positive don't let the past ruin your future"

"What do you mean, positive?"

"I will never understand what it must be like for you losing your child like that and not seeing him grow up but if you hold onto that or how you missed a few years with the girls you won't watch them grow up this time either, also your only twenty five you still have time to have more children"