Rewrite Time

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The iron giant might be the best movie I've seen

All the kids are asleep

It's kinda cute

Pansy's daughter Asteri is cuddled up with Rosalina they seem as thick as thieves together I remember Pansy and I always wanted our kids to get along the boys Luna has seem to be four years old so it seems we have 6 year olds, a 5 year old, and four year olds hogwarts won't be able to handle all of this

I help Fred carry the girls to bed and kiss them goodnight I walk down and help Pansy grab everything as Fred helps Luna along with George soon everyone is packed and we're waving by

Then I turn to Fred and George

"Was great seeing you both see you soon"

"When?"

"Huh?"

"When will we see you?"

"Not sure"

"Your not sure?"

"Why what's up?"

"Your pregnant and we both know you don't want to talk about it but I- we want to help you anyway we can"

George nods to what Fred said

"We also know how you get when everything becomes too much you shut people out not wanting them to share in your burden but it's okay just please come back. Your trying so hard not to let everything traumatic affect you and then this happens"

"I just have to figure everything else out first, but it's also funny in a messed up way"

"How?"

"Didn't end up Draco's step mom but I did fuck his dad and now I'm carrying his half sibling in my stomach life ended up nowhere close to what I thought it would be"

Both guys nod

"I've been pregnant three times with four different kids and I'm only twenty five and I'm so not ready and I have no idea what is going on and it feels like I'm suffocating when I think about who's father the baby inside me is I'm sick I'm so fucking sick but you know how difficult it is to kill one of my babies it's not like I could get a simple abortion if I decide I don't want this baby I have to take poison and have someone cut this child out of me and then crush it to the point it couldn't heal and I can't do that I can't see that happen again so no matter what I need to have this child"

Both guys look at her sad and nod "whatever you chose is right"

"Thanks your both trying so hard you guys have always tried with me even when I was a mess"

Fred looks to be in thought and then holds me in a hug

"If you want I'll tell people the kids mine" I shake my head "don't worry tonight I'll decide everything I'm going to do and let you both know"

"Okay want me to walk you out?" I shake my head "don't worry about me I'll be okay Fred"

Fred's pov

"Don't worry about me" Impossible

We wave goodbye and I keep my eyes on her till her figure disappears and I feel George watching me

"What?"

"Your never getting over her, are you?" I look at George and breath "I couldn't even if I wanted to"

"Do you want to?" I smile "I'm not sure anymore"

"What does that mean?" I shrug "I've waited so long to hold her again and I didn't ever think about how she would feel when we were finally reunited I thought how we could be a family and how good it would feel to tell her everything I've gone through with the girls and be happy to hear anything she told me and joyful to be in her arms I never thought about the horrors she lived through"

"That can't be true I remember you being scared of them torturing her"

"Yeah the worst I thought it would get was testing her and all the ways she could die or how long she could stay dead or come back I never thought they would... touch her that way and so many of them there's a fucking pamphlet with over 3000 names in that fucking thing and far more than half have touched her I didn't ever think of something like that"

"So that changes your love for her?"

"No Merlin no George! What I'm saying is I don't know how to salvage the relationship we had it's been so long and because of everything she's been though she built so many walls and I don't know how to break through them all or even one of them and I don't want to hurt her"

"So leaving her to deal with this by herself is better" I groan "nothing is better in this situation everything is awful but right now I need to be what ever she needs me to be when she needs it and she asked for tomorrow to think of what to do so I'll wait for her words"

"What does she want"

"Time and space"

"Even now with the pregnancy?" I shrug "haven't talked with it much other than the short bit you were here for. Last time we talked before news of the pregnancy she said it felt like she was drowning and needed time by herself after being freed from that hell"

"That's understandable"

"Yeah..."

"What do you think she'll do about the baby" I shrug "It's Asteria she wants a kid she hates how she got it but I know when I'm being used and three days ago suddenly out of nowhere she wants me again. Asteria would do anything to have another kid and it made me happy knowing she wanted it with me but now that she can have it without anyone she won't lose that chance I think the only thing she wants to think about is how to tell people"

"How to tell people?" I nod

"Every kid at some point asks where the other parent is if one isn't there or nosy people I remember the questions with the girls no one can seem to help it sometimes it's subtle and sometimes it's right in your face"

"Like when?"

"Getting the girls ready for kindergarten at a muggle school 'will their mother be joining us?' Or doctors office 'is your wife joining us today' which is very presumptuous to assume I'm married just because I have little children with me or even shopping 'their mother will love that' did I ask!"

"Okay you make a good point that sounds very annoying"

"I hope she'll let me help"

Asteria pov

"I know what to do"

An:

I am so annoyed and done with Christmas it's November 29 and all the Christmas decorations are up for my grandma house and it's beyond annoying they do these flashing lights on the tree and it should come with seizure warning and I'm not joking I have light problems and I'm about to be sick but not a single one of them put up Halloween decorations and then said "that's not a real holiday" I freaking hate her sometimes

Q: what's your favorite holiday and why?

Mine is Halloween my father never missed a single Halloween together growing up and I was a kid who got bullied when I was little so a mask and stuff like that made me happy and my dad always found a way to help me forget everything bad during Halloween it's my comfort holiday and I feel safe and happy with it and it's the only holiday my abusive egg donor never ruined on other holidays i was scared but with Halloween it's going knocking on other peoples houses getting candy it's late and the woman never really had an opportunity to get me during that holiday and the times she tried was always too late I was always faster when it was Halloween I had more motivation