Twisted wonderland x OP Reader

Intemporal queen(...)

Y/n's pov

After I shouted in pain in agony, I saw everything crumble down around me.

[Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac Tic-Tac...]

'Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up Shut up!'

I started hyperventilating, putting a hand on my chest 'Myself is too... I need to calm me or we-'

"Ara Ara~ Aren't you just such a beautiful mess right now, liebe?"

I tried to get up but for some reason, my legs wouldn't allow me.

Vil chuckled "After all, I think I'll just keep you~ Since you're meine liebe!"

He grabbed me by the collar before connecting our lips.

He pushed me back down as I coughed and tried to catch my breath. "I'll be right back once I reduce those tubers to silence~"

He flew away and I cursed myself "If I'm so strong then why is I so weak?"

Tic-Tac.

 "I can't take this anymore." I left the body.

I started breathing more heavily as I started crying. The tears were black. It's not ink, it's dark blood because of our negative emotions.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry. You and I are the same person but I can't..."

I sighed "While we are the same person and share the same personality, you're the one who went through all the trauma. I just appeared when you got your time powers and even then, I could only just watch not feel."

I sobbed "I... I just need time-"

"Take all the time you need, we control it after all." I grinned "Then we can go back." I turned back into a shadow.

...

I've always been different, I just couldn't fit in... Well, I'm not human to begin with, that's for sure.

Nobody ever really loved me, they just loved what I had to offer. I don't think I've ever felt this feeling called love. I just needed distractions, distractions that come in the form of work.

Maybe that's because I've never loved anybody else that I love and depend of my fans like that. I just feel like I'm so alone without it but I love to perform and I want to win.

I can't let anybody f*ck me over! I can't let anybody hurt me!

They all see profit in me and if I take a break, I will disappear for them and not be important nor relevant anymore; I will be easily replaced...

I'm not really a person for them. I'm just a money bag.

And sometimes, I'm just a problem.

I don't want to be a burden because of my emotions. I don't want to seem infantile because I don't like to lose but I've never lost in my whole life!

I spent all my life to work hard and be on top and now nobody beats me, nobody can defeat me, nobody can even try!

Ha ha ha ha... God? God, you're on my side, right? Why else would you have given me this much power? I was destined to be the best indefinitely, wasn't I?

Right... I'm like a god basically. I can do anything. But I'm a wasted life with a wasted soul and I didn't know what to do with this power you entrusted me with...

That's when you helped me again, huh? In a world full of banal people, you gave me a way to go elsewhere and learn what my true mission was...

Helping everybody.