Who We Are(The Outsiders Fanfiction)

28|"... I'd Say Adjusting..."

<Skyler's POV>

2 months later.

I don't know how much longer I can do this. There's a part of me that is saying just die Skyler, then there's the other part of me that says for gods sake go back to him, back to Dally. Yet, I can't do it. I stare down at the bump that is most definitely there. The small little bump that has grown to be the one thing I can talk to. After my pay from the diner got cut down I've really been struggling and honestly I'm going to be thrown out of this motel if I don't pay my rent for this month soon. It would be so easy to run and go back to Dally and abort the baby, but I just can't do it. A knock comes from my motel room door and I cautious let open it. I am met with the face of the motel owner.

"You need to pay your rent Ms. Winston," the woman says annoyed. I remember giving her my last name as Winston. When I thought of telling her my actual name it felt like I couldn't really love myself behind. Dally's name as the first name I thought of. I sigh.

"I know just please give me a few days," I beg. The owner rolls her eyes.

"One week, then your out if you don't pay," she demands then walks away. I slam the door shut and run to my bed and begin to cry. I've wanted to harm myself so many times in these past two months, but I didn't because I was afraid that if I died the baby would die. I'm not keeping the baby, but it's still a human being. Now the urge to cut is stronger than ever and I fear that I may give into the urge. My fists grab the bed sheets and squeeze tight. Suddenly I can't feel anything anymore and all I can do is listen to my own screams. Soon I realize the name I'm shouting. Dally's name keeps leaving my lips. "Dallas!" I don't know why I'm yelling his name, but it's like the more I say it the more I want to see Dallas. The more I want to feel Dallas's fiery touch upon my skin. The more I want to gaze into his eyes for hours. My screams stop, I stand up from the bed and begin to walk out of the motel. My feet carry me out of the motel and onto the cold deserted streets. I walk right away from civilization and towards me the one thing I want. After a little while of walking I stop to sleep in an alley until I am able to keep walking.

<Chris's POV>

After a two months without Soda, I've adapted to life, but I don't miss him any less. Pony and I are still working on the book of pictures and it is definitely a good source of therapy for me. Don't get me wrong I miss Soda and Steve a lot, but I'm getting used to their absence.

We also know now that Skyler will not be coming back. Its been almost three months since she left, so I'm assuming she isn't coming back. Dally seems to be doing okay. Sometimes I'll go to my old house and catch him screaming at the walls, but he never shows his anger when he's around us.

Darry should be home from work soon, so I'm making our dinner now. Pony is sitting on the kitchen counter to keep me company. "How was school?" I ask Pony. He shrugs his shoulders.

"Eh, it was okay, my English teacher was out so I was kind of down, how was your day?"

"Oh fine, I stopped by Dally's and then he took me to the dingo for a coke," I inform Pony.

"So he's okay?"

"I wouldn't say okay, I'd say adjusting, like the rest of us," I explain while taking my chicken out of the oven. Next thing I know, the door of the house is opening and I know that Darry is home right on time. I whip my head around so I'm facing the door and Pony does the same.

"Hi how was wor-" I start and then trail off. It's not Darry at the door. Pony yells then jumps off the counter and runs to the door. He hugs one of the visitors and then just stands next to him as if allowing a path for me, and boy oh boy, do I take that path. I sprint from the kitchen and jump into one of the visitors arms. He catches me and I wrap my legs around his waist and start to bawl my eyes out.

"You're back! Your back," I repeat over and over in Soda's shoulder. Steve then hugs me from behind and suddenly I feel safe in my little huddle.

"Shhh, Christina relax, were only back for a week," Soda tells me. I freeze again and jump down from Soda's chest then look back and forth between Soda and Steve.

"Why are you back for a week?" I ask. Steve tells us that we might wanna sit down so Pony, Steve, Soda, and I sit on the old couch.

"We were told we could come back for a short period of time because when we go back we won't just be at our camps anymore... we're going into battle," Steve explains.

"So they sent you back to say goodbye in case you didn't make it?" Pony asks. Soda rubs Pony's back and nods his head. Before anything more can be said Darry walks into the house and the first thing Soda does is stand up and sprint to his brother who catches him in a tight embrace. After a long hug Soda explains to Darry what he just explained to us and Darry starts to flinch.

"Well there's nothing we can do about it, come on let's go eat," Darry suggests.

"I'm actually going to go pop in at my parents house," Steve says. We nod our heads and I kiss his cheek as he walks out the door. Then the four of us go and sit down at the table to eat the chicken and rice that I made for dinner.

--------------------------

Halfway through dinner Two-Bit, Johnny, and Dally showed up at our house because Steve saw them on the road and told them that they were back for a week, so they came here. Once we finished eating the seven of us sat in the living room and talked for a while, but can I say, I was kinda glad when Dally suggested everyone should go home. I really need some alone time with Soda. That night after everyone left Soda and I come together after two long months of waiting, and turn our energy into pure melting passion that we show to each other.

A/N holy shit.

Soda
Steve
Skyler

Shit man

Shit
Shit
Shit
Shit

Are you little spoons excited? Confused? Mad? Sad? Happy? Cause I don't know how I'm feeling.

Have a nice time waiting for the next chapter you little spoons.

Stay gold💛

Vote and Comment.