All Your Lies | Yoon Jeonghan

CH 10: The Things You Do

[ As Terrible As It Sounds, I Cared Too Much ]

For one, Raki had never thought that they would ever be within the reach of getting closer from the usual talks they do.

She had made a few pledges to herself, one don't fall (even harder) for Jeonghan, second don't fall (even more harder) for Jeonghan; they were promises she ought to swear to right when they start their agreement,

However, at a time when they haven't even properly started yet, after that car ride that wasn't suppose to do and mean anything to her, on a much regrettable moment in time, her feelings for him increased in an amount that was strangely irrepressible.

All the words that comes out through his lips, they were the reason to her discomfort, the torment to her reasonable commitments, and yet, how is she still listening? Over and over again. Without getting weary.

"I feel like. . I shouldn't be the only one who's benefiting from this agreement."

Raki peered at him who has seated across the table, seeking to read what he meant before she could actually ask him for it.

"What do you mean?"

Jeonghan placed his arms on the table for him to be able to lean against it. "Would you be using our fake relationship for your own convenience?"

She ponder to herself for awhile, and slowly shook her head as she got the conclusion that she been doing all those efforts solely for him. "No, I don't think so. ."

"Like. . at some point in the future?"

She continued to shook her head, not in a way that she was really certain, but is somehow hesitant, in a sense that she wouldn't know what would her life be like months, and even days from then.

"Then is there anything that you hate that I could do something about?"

It was the type of question that would take her a few while to answer, and even if she does, she honestly didn't know what to accurately say back.

She dubiously shrugged her shoulders. "I'm not sure."

"You can tell me anything. . and maybe I could go to the extent of murdering someone."

The smile plastered on his face contradicted so much to the content of his phrase.

She was somewhere in the middle of confusion and not believing what he said for the sake of rationality. "You would?"

He shrugged his shoulders in the most assertive way possible, giggling as if he wouldn't take a risk if he was actually serious with what he had said. "We don't know about that."

She scoffed in disbelief, not believing how he got to that point. "I suggest you won't."

"Then you have to tell me. . what is it that you hate?"

Would something actually change if she tells him?

But, if there was something she hated above everything, it was probably, "I hate it back home."

Raki knew that the moment she told him those words, noticing how her voice shifting into a more staid tone, it would in some way dim the atmosphere.

She knew that it sounded demented to learn how someone sternly hated their own home.

"I do too."

Her gaze instantly went to him.

Jeonghan had a smile on his face, yet she would be way too dense if she denied the resentment that his own face couldn't even hide. "I also hate it back home."