End Of Me -Matt Sturniolo-

Chapter 21

Matt and I forced ourselves 5 feet apart last night but somehow I wake up in his arms. He's breathing softly, evenly, steady, a warm hum in the morning air.

I scrunch my eyebrows suddenly a feeling of discomfort flushing over my body. I remember the events of last night and internally sigh about the way it ended.

Never go to bed angry or with unresolved problems.

My mom always told me that as a kid. Well sorry mom but I did just that.

I never meant for things to end the way they did. I wanted to reason with him. I wanted to talk things out.

Maybe I shouldn't of leant back in after he kissed me the first time. Maybe it was too much.

God what if I fucked everything up.

When he kissed me it's like I realised I had been numb my whole life, just waiting for the touch of warmth.

I really thought something was changing.

Well yeah things changed but not in the way I thought they would.

He wouldn't talk to me.

Never in the 11 years I've known Matt has he ever ignored me.

I blink my eyes open, peering into the daylight as I shake away the negative thoughts.

I'm caught off guard at a pair of blue eyes staring back at me from the edge of the bed.

"Chris what the fuck?" I softly whisper trying not to wake Matt up.

"Where'd you two go last night?" He folds his arms as he stares at me with a quirked eyebrow.

"We went on a walk to the beach because we couldn't sleep" I whisper as I slowly slip out of Matt's arms trying my best not to wake him.

"What took you so long then?" Chris asks me as I sigh before standing up, grabbing his wrist and pulling him into the bathroom so we don't wake Nick and Matt up.

"We couldn't sleep, we walked to the beach, climbed on the lifeguard tower and then talked and lost track of time I guess" I shrugged as he looks at me like I'm lying.

"I call bullshit, there's something you're not telling me" He gives me a knowing look.

"Chris I swear nothing happened" I don't know why I feel the need to lie to Chris. I know he wouldn't tell anyone but I don't know if Matt wants him to know and it's not my place to tell his brother incase Matt wants to tell him. It's just so confusing.

"Then why we're you so quiet when you came back in" He raises an eyebrow.

"We're you awake the whole time?" I squint my eyes.

"Yup"

"What the fuck Chris" I throw my hands in the air. "We were quite because Matt is ignoring me for some reason and won't say a word to me we literally walked back from the lifeguard tower in dead silence. When the fuck is Matt ever silent around me? Chris he has never ignored me before" I flash Chris a worried glance because I truly am worried. What if Matt never speaks to me again? I don't know what the fuck I would do.

"Scar I wanna help you because I know it's weird, never in my life have I ever known Matt to give you the silent treatment. But there's something you're not telling me and I know it. Matt wouldn't ignore you out of nowhere like this, he cares about your feelings too much. We all care about your feelings. Seeing you worked up about this isn't sitting right with me so I'm gonna help you but you gotta tell me what's going on" He pleads. It's really sweet what he's doing, showing he actually cares.