Nathan skipped the next 2 weeks from school i was as dying of guilt and worry, yes i was a bitch to h
'jazzy whats wrong?' Layla whispers in class.
'just thinking' i say as i start taking notes.
'do you want me to go by nathans house and check up in him?' Layla asks.
"No, because than he will think that iam obsessed with him and cant live without him' i say .
'but Arent you obsessed with him?' she says laughing .
'shh' i say back sarcastic as the teacher gives us a stern look.
My heart burn everytime something reminds me of Nathan wich kills me litterly.
40 min later-
After class i ate lunch with Layla buti just had this bad feeling so i was kinda quiet.
'i need to see Nathan like right now' i say stressed.
'we can go after our last class calm down he is not gonna die without you' Layla says.
I scoff
We walk back to class, everyone was just walking and walking and walking it made me sick.
'i am gonna sit next to jack' she says as she huges me and sits down.
We start my last class of the day,i can finally see Nathan after this i am literary gonna throw up from nerve.
I hear the class door open and saw Nathan walking in, my heart jumped from shock.
'sorry miss' he says.
She gives him a annoyed look and keeps on reading from the board.
Layla looks at me in shock, Nathan was dead skinny his cheeks were falling in his eyes were red.
He walks over to the table infront of me and sits down, as it did hurt my feeling that he didn't sit next to me.
Layla gives me a confused look.
'uhm science groups sit next to each other and finish the project' the teacher says.
I get up and sit next to Nathan,he looked even more sick from close by.
'hey Nathan' i say with a little smile.
'hi' he says with a low cracked voice.
'i missed you' i say softly.
He sighs.
'why didnt you text me? Because i said i needed space? I didn't mean it'i say feeling so bad.
He scoffs as he gets up and walks out of the class.
I look over at Layla but she is to busy laughing with jack.
I get up and run after nathan,he sits down i front of the school on the bench.
'is it because of me that you look like you are litterly in your dead bed?' i ask as i sit next to him.
' i was admitted i to the hospital after cops found me passed out in a park covered. look Jazmine not everything is about you' he says annoyed.
I look at his Dark brown eyes as a tear rolls down his face.
'i didnt know' i say softly.
'ofcourse you didnt' he says as he lights his ciggerate.
'i am sorry nathan'
I give him a hug as he throws away his ciggerate.
'i love you ' i say softly
He pulls away from the hug.
'i am moving to Chicago i found and apartment' he says as he looks down at his shoes.
'chicago? What about us?' i say confused.
'cmon Jazmine, i will die before you even turn 18 and i will break your heart' he scoffs.
'so i mean nothing to you?' i ask while my eyes are tearing up.
'no, you dont mean anything to me' he says as his voice cracks and he looks up at the sky.
It felt like 3 bullets entered my heart, is this what actual heartbreak feels like?
' i would rather you cheat on me' i say as a tear rolls down my cheek.
'thats why you shouldnt love a addict, your little friend was right' he scoffs as he gets up.
'SO I MEAN ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO YOU ?' i yell in tears as i also get up.
'no Jazmine you dont matter to me, jump of a fucking bridge if it makes you happy' he says as he walks away.
I walk back into the school and fall on the toilet ground in tears, why would Nathan do this to me?
'jazmine what happend?' Layla says as she runs into the bathroom.
'nathan said he doesnt care about me and he is moving away' i say in tears.
'i told you that-' she says as i cut her of.
'no Layla dont say i told you so, i actually loved Nathan' i say as i walk out of the bathroom.
I walk out of the school and get my bike, i need to clear my mind, today is the worst day of my life i fucking hate today.
I bike past the high way and my favourite coffee place, my dads work,the park where me and Nathan were, layla's house, everywhere but Nathan.
I park my bike infront of my house, i take my keys and go inside.
My house had a weird vibe like bad energie, i look around and i saw no one was home but my dads car was on the drive way.
I pass my parents room as i open it.
I look in shock at what i saw.
My father,my dad,my parents, is hanging dead on the wall.
'dad? Dad? Daddy? Please wake up' i cry as i look at his life less body hanging on the ceiling.
My father killed himself-
I run to the bathroom and vomit and vomit and vomit.
I get up slowly and look on the kitchen counter a note, a suïcide note.
My beautiful daughters Jazmine you look perfect this morning when you left and kissed my cheek.
Daddy loves you forever and always.
I wanna apologize for doing this to you but i cant take this life anymore .
Tell ur mom i am so sorry that i never showed love to her, i love my beautiful girl Jazmine.
I fall down to the ground with the note in my hand, multiple tears felt down on the paper.
I take my phone and called the cops, i cant take being inside the house anymore.
I see the cops arrive they run inside with a ambulance, there were Docters there for me they asked my quistions.
I didn't answer any, i hate my life.
'jazmine?' i voice says.
It was Layla.
'hi' i say back as i sit down infront of my front door.
'i am so sorry about your dad' she says in tears.
'i need to pick a date for him to cremeted' i say feeling numb.
'when are you gonna do it?'
'next tomorrow' i say as i feel a tear on my cheek.
'your dad was a good men' she says.
'he wasnt, cheated on my mom never being home being drunk' i say still not knowing how to feel.
'i need to go home text me later' she says.
It was already dark outside and my father is dead,havent heard anything from my mom is weeks and Nathan is leaving.
I go inside,the police locked off the door to my dads room,my house felt weird.
I lay down on the ground, i realized that i helped me think in stressful moments?
