I wake up with the worst back pain,because i literally fell asleep on the ground.
I get up and take a long shower, brushed my teeth.
I was trying to be as a active as possible o dont want to get all depressed because my dad died and my mom left and the love of my life is gonna move away and doesnt love me.
I cleaned the house, started at my room and the kitchen bathroom etc.
I think i wanna change the aesthetic of the house, my house, the house is on my name now.
I called my mom a few times but she didn't pick up her phone, my mom has always been weird and kinda rude to me growing up but its just so weird to me that i called her litterly 204 times and she doesnt care to pick up.
I put my clothes in the washing machine as i hear the bell ring.
I run downstairs.
'hello?' i say as i open the door.
Nathan was standing there,his overzised ripped jeans and overzised hoodie made him look even more skinny than he already was.
'hey Jazmine i just wanna say i am so sorry-' he says as i cut him off.
'sorry shouldnt you be in Chicago?' i ask trying to sound rude.
'i am sorry about that, i didn't mean it i was high and i am so sorry about your father' he says
'how do you know about my father?' i ask confused.
'layla told me and i am sorry and i love you' he says.
'you dont love me' i say back trying my best not to cry.
'i do, Jazmine i really do, i was high and drunk and i-' he says.
'nathan go home' i say
'no, because i love you and i fucked up by treating you bad' he says.
I sigh as tears roll down my eyes.
'i know you think i am a bad person' he says
'i only think that i love you' i say as hug him.
He is freezing cold but so comfortable and he smells amazing.
'nathan you look so sick' i say as i look up at his face.
'i kinda got sick at the hospital, but i will get better for you Jazmine' he says with a little smile.
I take his hand and walk inside
'what happend yesterday, with your dad?' he asks.
'uhm after you said that to me i went home And i had a bad feeling opened his room door and saw him hanging dead on a rope and he left a note' i say as fast as possible so i wont cry.
'jesus i am sorry Jaz' he says.
'i dont know how to feel about it, of what i should do, i have so many bottles of vodka here' i say
'mhm' he says with his low voice as he leans in to kiss me.
I kiss him back and sit down on his lap facing him.
'ur so beautiful' he says as he puts his hand on my ass.
I push his hair back out of his face.
I push down in his lower stomach gently as he grunts is pain.
"Are you okay Nathan?' i ask confused.
'yea' he says still obviously in pain.
I pull up his hoodie and see a big round wound on his stomach,it looked like its still healing.
