Back To Me

Chapter 23

Thozi's POV:

Words cannot even begin to explain to you the pure shock which rippled through me as of a result of all Karim said to Lucia then. Does he mean what he said? Does he really love me all as much as he says he does? I simply do not know. But with how real and sincere all of those words seemed when the exited his lips, I do not think I can question him on it. He seemed in a strong sense serious, like he truly meant every single word of it. And as much as those are the words I have longed to hear for such a long while now, I cannot help but to feel bad only on Lucia's part. I feel bad due to the fact that her heart has probably broken further as now.

You can see from the way Lucia looks at Karim as to just how much she truly does care all in such a strong sense for him, how much she loves him, and also how much her heart has now all of a sudden broken in two due to the realisation of what was going on behind her back. I feel bad as a result of this all. I have broken this woman's heart, I am the main source all just as to why her and Karim's relationship has split off in two different directions. If I would only have walked away when Karim started to try things on with me, if I told him I did not even in a slight way want to know, then things would be different. Yes Lucia was the woman which I found out to be the one Karim cheated on me with, but she does not deserve any of all this.

Not only have I ruined a perfectly good relationship before I came into picture, but also as a result of this all, I have ruined my friendship with Lucia. There is no way on this earth that in a sense at all will she be able to forgive me for this. But then again what woman would? As I am sure that any sort of friendship Lucia and I have built up throughout my duration of time I have been working for her, is well and truly out the window now. But not only that, also in a sense I am sure I have just lost my job due to everything that has happened with Karim. Of course, I knew this moment was going to come when Lucia found out about Karim and I, but I did hope that I would be able to tell Lucia myself. Instead of her finding out just in this way.

Anyway, as I looked at Lucia while I was sat on the sofa, I noticed the severe devastation and hurt evident upon her due to Karim's outburst of words then. To me, and from the position I was sat in, it seemed like all she wanted to do was cry. But being the strong woman in which I have grown to realise she is, she held back the tears and proceeded to answer in some of a way to her now ex-boyfriend seemingly. "Why don't you just shut up and stay out of this for once huh, or do you have to get involved in this conversation now, just like you did with this little slapper to ruin our relationship?" I gulped at those words as they came from Lucia, just to know they were about me of course. "You know what Karim, just leave will you, please?"

"What, you expect me to just walk away now when you were just seconds away from hitting Thozi just then?" Karim stood firm and protective over the situation, looking at Lucia then all in such a way of disbelief. But all Lucia could do in response to Karim's words right then, was all to nod her head as if to say that is exactly what she expects him to do. And if I am now all to be completely honest with you, as much as I do love and appreciate the times all in which Karim is protecting me, now is not the right time. Now is the time when I do not deserve in a sense at all to be protected. I am in the wrong, after all. "So anyway, what gives you any sort of right to kick me out of here? This is Thozi's apartment, and that choice, is up to her only."

With both sets of eyes from Lucia and Karim on me then, I knew I had to make the right of a decision in this case. I needed to do the right thing, and not the thing which I wanted to, for once in my life. "Karim, I think you should leave." Speaking in a croaked tone of voice then, I looked up at him as he was stood just aside from where Lucia was in front of me on the sofa in this moment. And as a result of my words then, Karim seemed shocked. But in a way also, he seemed as if he understood my reasons for this. "It's not that I don't want you here..." As I spoke those words I paused, noticing an angrier look upon Lucia's face then. "But I think all of this should be between me and Lucia and not anybody else for the time being. We have a lot to talk about due to everything that's happened and you being here isn't best right now."