Back To Me

Chapter 11

Thozi's POV:

Staring up at the bleak ceiling to my bedroom I allowed for a loud sigh to slip out from of the small gap between my lips, resting my hands above my head on the pillow as I did so. As you can probably imagine now – due to the fact of waking up and coming to terms with the fact I only had a dream about Karim, and it was not reality – I was devastated, to say the least. All I have wanted for so long is for Karim to touch me like that, to be ever so delicate with me in a sense as to what he used to be all those years ago now. But I guess now, from the looks of things, I am going to have to wait a little longer. How long is a mystery to me, not having just a slight idea over the matter. It could be weeks, months, perhaps even possibly such longer.

But one thing is for certain right now, that being that I want to be able to have the sort of a relationship with Karim that I used to. The sort of a relationship as to where we do not have to hide away from the public eye, scared and worried in who may see us together, I want for it all to go back to how it used to be. When Karim and I were deeply in love with each other, not having to worry about who will see us. But with the situation we are in now, hiding all of behind Lucia’s back, the both of us really do not have much of a choice. My job is on the line over the situation and Karim’s reputation, the two things the both of us cannot afford even in the slightest to lose. Of course the truth will come out in the end, but just not for a while.

Despite the fact of Karim and I having to keep everything a secret from the world it does not mean that we are unable to spend time together, because we of course. But all of it now, is of course to be restricted. Only on certain times can we go out in public, being sure that we are not seen in wherever we go. Of course that is going to be challenge with Karim’s status, but I have the hope and trust in us both that we will make it work. But on the times in which we are not out in public will be spent as just the two of us, either and my apartment or also at Karim’s house – depending if Lucia is in or not. Seeing as I do not fancy being caught with Karim and I in the act, I honestly do think that our best bet is for us to remain at ours now.

I mean can you imagine it? Lucia walking in on Karim and I in her bed…that is a sight which I would not want anybody to have to view when in a relationship. Yes she was the one that in a sense jumped into bed with Karim when he and I were in a relationship, but I would not at all want her to have to see it. I thankfully did not see such of an image, and Lucia as well in a sense does not deserve to. Like I have said time and time again; I am not proud over the way I feel about Karim, and something I wish I could just shut my feelings off for him. But in such of a defence to myself, you cannot help who you fall for, and my case is that I always have in since I can remember had feelings for this man. And I cannot see them going either as now.

Anyway, continuing to lay flat on my back on the bed, knowing I had to get up quickly as of a result of getting ready for work, I simply could not gather the right amount of courage to do so. It was all down to the fact of how tired I had become, I just wanted to stay in bed so that I could sleep all day. But just as the idea was beginning to appeal to me, I was stopped dead in my tracks, all by a loud banging coming from my bedroom door. “If you don’t get up now Thozi and I swear, I’ll come in there and drag you out myself.” Just from the tone which was to be shown in her voice I knew that we were late for work, causing for me to groan in then.

So with an ever so loud and heavy sight to slip from my lips I sat up in bed, stretching a little as I rubbing my eyes in doing so. But still the loud and repetitive sound of Adrienne knocking on my bedroom door rang through my ears, annoying me beyond compare. “I’m up, give me a minute will you?!” Groaning loudly in annoyance as I let those words come from me in of a sense of annoyance there was a loud and heavy sigh coming from the other side of the door, and I could only but imagine that Adrienne was to be shaking her head in doing so. So with a slight hesitation due to how tired I was right now, I soon got myself out of bed, sluggishly in a way walking over to the mirror in the far corner of my room to sit down in front of it then.