Back To Me

Chapter 6

Thozi's POV:

Waking up from the sound of banging coming out the kitchen I sighed heavily, sitting up and rubbing my eyes as I became adjusted to the sour reality of being awake. But in doing so the smell of fried bacon made an appearance to my nostrils, sending a feeling of delight as well as satisfaction to me. So turning my head towards the direction of the alarm clock that I had on the bedside table I sighed to myself, seeing the time to be half seven. Meaning I now had an hour and a half to get ready for work, the one place which I do not want to be in any sort of way today. As still, the thoughts of Karim were continuing to play on my mind ever since I saw him at the club. Call me stupid all you like, but seeing him has brought memories back.

Memories which I thought I would never think of again, the good and the bad. From all that happiness we shared together throughout the time in our relationship, to the torturing of all the thoughts back when we broke up. Every single aspect of Karim came back to me when I saw him, and it has not gone away since. When I am led in bed at night with my eyes closed all I see is him, I see Karim, his face lights up within my mind and makes it impossible for me to get to sleep. It is like a constant reminder of what I could still have if I would have moved here with him in the first place, things could have been so different if I did. I would not be a crying and upset freak whenever the mention of him, I could be as happy as I ever could be.

But that of course is not the case at all as we all know, I chose not to leave to Madrid back in the past with Karim and therefore I am the one that is facing the consequence of it all. Yes, I know I should not be crying as it was party my own fault we broke up, but I just cannot help myself in the matter. Karim meant so much to me, and although I try to hide it away now he still does, he was a huge part of my life and that is never going to change. I am always going to have some form of feelings for him due to the nature of how serious our relationship was in the past but that is all I can have, he has moved on now and from the looks of things he is as happy as ever. So perhaps I should take a leaf out of his book, try to move on at long last.

“Thozi are you up, we’ve got to leave in just over an hour.” Hearing the sound of Adrienne’s voice coming from the other side of my door I was forced back into a state of reality, letting a small hum out from my lips as a response. “Good well I’m making you a bacon sandwich at the moment, so come into the kitchen for me please.” So with that I heard the sound of her footsteps walking away from my door, causing for me to roll my eyes in response to it with a sigh from my lips. In all honesty I just wanted to stay in bed and sleep all day, but of course I am not able to. So with that I shot up from bed, wrapping my dressing gown around me just before I made my way through to the kitchen to meet Adrienne as she cooked us breakfast.

Sitting down on one of the stools at the table aside from where Adrienne was standing over in front of the stove I sighed, resting my head on my hand as my elbow was placed on top of the table. “How long have you been up for?” Letting a yawn out from my lips I stretched just a little in my seat, reopening my eyes and seeing Adrienne looking straight at me. A look as I could make out to be disbelief, and so was proved as she shook her head at me before then getting back to facing our breakfast in cooking it. “What, why did you look at me like that?” Scrunching my eyebrows as I spoke I looked at the back of her head, in a sense of confusion.

But as I spoke those words I watched as Adrienne simply just shook her head at me as she in that moment finished cooking, placing the rashes of bacon which she had cooked inside the both of the sandwiches placed beside. Taking the plates and handing me my own, as right in that moment I thanked her before following her to the dining table in the other room. “You really are so lazy, do you know that?” Looking at me as she uttered those words we both sat down at the table, and I realised then she was answering my previous question. “I mean you slept the whole night last night and you went to bed so early, yet here you are yawning and being tired.” I just shrugged my shoulders. “I have been up since seven already, look at you.”