Back To Me

Chapter 28

Thozi's POV:

It has been a month since Karim proposed the idea of me moving in with him, a month all of me imagining what my life will be like when I take that extra step into our relationship. And I have to admit, with all the thoughts running around in my mind as a result of what it may be like, I am far more than excited. Just the prospect of waking up each and every morning with the man I love by my side, spending our free time together without either of us even in such a slight way to need to travel to make it happen, is something I have longed and needed, for such a long time. Ever since Karim moved to Madrid from Lyon, where I stayed when he had the transfer, I have been looking forward to this moment. Living with the man, which I love.

And if the prospect of moving in with Karim shortly is good enough, then the way that things have been going with the both of us recently, most definitely is. Each moment which I am to spend with Karim is nothing short of perfect, just being around this man bring me such of all an unreal amount of happiness. Yes, I of course am aware that this is supposed to happen as soon as you find someone you love, but it has only reall started properly when everything all with Lucia died down. In a way perhaps with her finding out about me and Karim, it has only just made us stronger as a couple. As from where I am sat now, that seems to be the reason.

But even though it may have been the making of me and Karim by Lucia finding out, I do just feel so bad for what I have done to her. I did not mean for things to get as bad as they did all with Karim and I, I did not want to hurt a close friend of mine in Lucia, but, with what I know Karim is like, it was ever so hard for me to resist him. The one and only thing which I want to be given the chance to do now though is to sit down with Lucia, have a mature conversation with her, and apologise profoundly for all the pain I have caused her. Although with all those unanswered texts and phone calls, from my behalf to Lucia's, there is no way that is going to ever happen. I have not seen her since it happened and I doubt I will ever see her again also.

So although I am of course feeling ever so upset with the way I left things with Lucia, my life has taken a dramatic turn in events since a month ago. Now I am no longer unemployed and I have finally managed to get myself a job, at one of Madrid's highest offices, here in the city at that. And just due to me being able to fend for myself and being financially stable, in such a sense it has opened the door for me to be able to move in with Karim. The last thing which I ever wanted was to move in with him without earning my own money, being forced just to depend on Karim when it comes to money. Yes, I am aware, that he earn thousands a week, but that is not the life I want to live. And that is why, right now, the time is right, as of now.

Anyway, enough of that and back to the here and now, and here Karim and I are now, all to be unloading the rest of my stuff from Karim's car. Words cannot even start to explain right now to you just how tired I am. Since eight o'clock this morning Karim and I have been going back and forth to my old apartment with Adrienne, to get all my stuff. Karim's car, not being big enough to store all of my stuff in. But with this having been the last trip there and back, I do feel ever so relieved by it. As the second in which we put all my stuff away, I am then just to be able to relax at long last. I will be able to relax, in my new house, with Karim, with only the two of us. Something I have been looking forward to say, for such of a long time as now.

But, even though I am ever so excited about this new step with Karim, it does not take back all of the sense of upset which I am feeling, due to leaving Adrienne. I am going to miss her, ever so much now. There will be no messing around all around the house anymore, none of us having girly nights in whenever we want to with a takeaway in front of the TV, and also, I will not have here there constantly when I need her. Of course, I am aware that Adrienne is only a phone call away now, or even a small car journey away, but that is not the same. And I know it will take a little while of getting used to, due to being so accustomed to living with her. But then again, of course, I will see Adrienne. It is not as if I have moved very far away.