Unexpected

Chapter XIX: Kids' Menu

Josie's P.O.V 

Hope and I walked hand in hand out of the school and a short distance to the car. We didn't talk, just stayed in silence enjoying the nice fresh summer night air.

It was peaceful and calm for the first time since the girls had shown up. Or maybe it was a bit before that. The many times we would fight monsters of Malivor and try to save everyone. Day after day, it was hectic and stressful. I thought when going to a magical school we would deal with a few sets of monsters, but fighting for our lives. It was like everything was falling apart before it truly began.

And when it finally did.

Here we were trying to protect our future daughters by killing my father and our ex's. Something I never thought would be possible.

And even after all that, it took a simple walk to feel at peace. My humanity was still off, and I kept thinking about the emotional toll that will flood my body the moment I turned it back on.

A part of me didn't want to. It loved the fearless, recklessness of my choices. The part that made me feel like I could do anything and not care what happens to me or those around me. Enjoying myself without ever feeling a shed of remorse.

But the other part. The part that was fighting to turn back on wanted to feel the emotions of caring. What if I can't have that emotional connection with my daughters because of it. Could I look at them and still feel love, or would they just be simple kids that share my DNA. I think that was the one question that I was scared to find an answer too.

I didn't care what anyone else thought of me, nor I of them. But I cared what the girls thought of me. Would they see me as a monster now?

It wasn't long before we finally reached the car. Lizzie saw us and got out of the car. Hope and I managed to change our bloody clothes quickly when we finished our little job and grab a bag and filled it with random clothes to make it look like that's all we went back for.

"Finally, I thought the two of you would never show up. So much for a quickie that literally took hours" Lizzie rolled her eyes. She opened the door for the backseat, and scooted her way in. I didn't smile nor give any expression on her statement. I didn't know what to say so I just kept my mouth shut scared that I might say or do something wrong, and lizzie would find out.

I know I should tell her about me becoming a heretic. But I just killed our dad. There is only so much news she could handle all at once. Yeah, Hell I didn't even know about my own humanity. Maybe it's better if she never finds out. And if she starts to ask questions then I'll make something up until I stop caring and tell her the truth. I could do it right here, and now.

"Come on Jos" hope pulled on my hand dragging me to the passenger's side. She opened the door, and I got in. Hope closed the door and jogged towards the driver side, and settled in. She adjusted the mirror. I looked behind me, lizzie in the middle between both girls. Kayley still peacefully sleeping, and through the small mirror in front of her car seat Andrea was also asleep occasionally sucking on her pacifier.

"Go to sleep my love. It's been a long day" Hope softly spoke. Her head rested on the head rest, giving me a gentle smile trying to give me some form of... warmth and comfort. I didn't say anything, just got comfortable in my seat before resting my head by the window.

Hope was right. Today was a long day and I needed to get some rest. And how I prayed when I woke up that this would all just be a dream. Pray that this nightmare would finally come to an end.