The Doctor (The Howard Surgeons)

Chapter 2

Chapter Two

I was in my quarters at si patient 143 pa rin nasa isip ko. I want to help her but without her consent to be treated wala din naman akong magagawa.
I was thinking how can? And how would I convince her. I'll always keep her question in my mind.

"Maganda ba 'ko?"

Why would she ask that kind of question? Ano kaya connect nun sa kalagayan niya? Yun ba yung rason bakit ayaw niyang ma cure? Dahil insecure siya sa sarili niya?
Maybe I need to start in the bottom. Develop her confidence.

Early in the morning around 7:30 I dropped by on her room. When I open the door I saw her sleeping. I leave a sticky note  in the back of her phone.

"Good morning beautiful." -Dc. Liam

Hope this may help her boost her confidence.

Around lunch, I knocked on her room again and saw her with her phone. Pero wala na yung sticky note.

"Pwedeng pumasok?"

She ignored me but still pumasok pa rin ako.

"Dok, wag ka na po mag aksaya nang panahon. Di niyo mababago ang isip ko." aniya.

"Hmm.... I have something to tell. Can you give me a minute?"

Tinignan niya ako atsaka siya tumango.

"Tungkol kagabi. I just want to let you know that, yes with all of my heart. With honest feelings you're beautiful." and I smiled.

"Hindi ko sinasabi 'to to make you feel better or pagaanin yung loob mo."

"Just to answer the question yesterday night. My answer is yes. You are pretty." and I smiled again.

Atsaka ako umalis. I just came by to say that to her dahil yun naman din yung totoo.

I actually take my turn back to leave, but suddenly.

"Dok teka lang."

Napalingon agad ako sa kanya.

"Can I have your time? Kahit saglit?"

I smiled.

"Of course."

I grabbed a chair and seat facing her.

"I was being bullied because of my appearance kaya tama ka hindi masyadong mataas yung confidence ko sa sarili." atsaka niya ko tinignan.

I just quietly listen and she continued.

"There's a man I love since high school. He is the famous soccer player in our school then. Hindi ko kailan man inisip na papansinin niya ako pero, when we're in our 4th yr in high school. Bigla siya lumapit sa akin para maki pag friend."

"I help him with ith his acads and other activities. Help him make his projects and homeworks. I actually thought that finally I found a true friend, when we both decide to enter the same university."

"I actually take med course. Since I was young I want to be a doctor. In my college days I was being tortured by words. Hindi naman kasi ako maganda but then Hanz is there to defend and fight for me."

I look at her. At napapalunok ako nang laway sa kwento niya.

"Busy ako sa pag comply nang lahat ng projects ko, at sa pag comply nang projects niya as engineering student. Since day 1 hanggang ngayon na malapit na kaming grumadaute."

"I was being stressed and depressed, when I was in third year I was confine at dun na nga ako na diagnosed with brain tumor."

"I kept this on my own, hindi ko sinabi kay Hanz yun. There is a time na admitted ako for a week kaya di ko na comply yung mga activities niya."

And she started to cry.

"Sabi niya, hindi na nga ako maganda, hindi niya pa ako maasahan sa mga simpleng bagay. Hindi ko man lang daw ni remind Yung sarili ko na e pass on time yung mga projects niya, utak na nga lang daw ang meron ako di pa gumagana. Wala na nga akong itsura pati utak ko wala na din daw sa kondisyon."

Iyak lang siya nang iyak.

"Sa mundong 'to dok. Utak nalang ang meron ako. Tapos magkaka tumor pa? Bakit pati utak ko may deperensya? Bakit ko pa to ipapaayos eh sirang-sira na." atsaka niya binuhos ang luha niya.

And I never realized that my eyes are showered with my tears while listening to her. Hindi lang yung utak niya ang iniinda niyang sakit. I can say na mas malala pa yung sakit na nararamdam nang puso niya.