Molly's Fics Cause she Refuses to Read Them on Ao3

Define me anew

Tw/Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Teacher Nakahara Chuuya, University Student Dazai Osamu, Sexual Tension, Safe Sane and Consensual, Semi-Public Sex, Sapiosexual Dazai Osamu, Small age gap

Sapiosexual: (of a person) finding intelligence sexually attractive or arousing.
I had to google it.

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Dazai Osamu never cared about life. Neither his own, nor life in general – he found the concept of living mostly boring. The notion of being born, going to school, and then working until retirement only to die soon after felt like a meaningless burden pushed onto humans by societal expectancy, and conforming to such a useless norm made him sick to the stomach.

His father was a good example of this: Mori Ogai was a well-respected doctor who, behind closed doors, sacrificed all possible joys to life to reach such status among his peers. Dazai often wondered as a teenager just how much of someone's humanity has to be gone to miss their deceased wife's memorial ceremony in favor of a work function.

He only stopped with his fruitless attempts of understanding his father after that one conversation – the one that happened while Dazai laid in a hospital bed, arms wrapped up in fresh bandages, and instead of being there as a parent, Mori appeared in his white coat and treated him as nothing more than a patient.

Apparently, if someone could skip their wife's funeral without feeling any remorse for their action, they were also capable of treating their son's suicide attempt just as another job to finish for the day.

Due to his occupation, it was only natural for Mori to want a bright future for Dazai, academically and career-wise, so when the time came, he presented Dazai with a folder. It contained a signed recommendation letter and a list of all the acceptable high-status medical courses across the country.

Dazai though had no intentions of following in his father's footsteps.

The argument became nasty as they threw insults at each other that would break any normal human being, and Dazai fought tooth and nail against Mori's will. Life itself might be meaningless, but if he was forced to go through it anyway, then he wanted to do it completely on his own terms.

In the end, Mori offered to make a couple of calls if Dazai would at least choose to study Psychology, – something less respectable in his books but still practical enough, – but Dazai rejected that offer too.

After the falling out with his dad, Dazai opted to study Philosophy, the most useless course he could've chosen.

To be completely fair, he didn't only choose the field to spite his dad. Dazai found Philosophy fairly interesting with all its questions with no real answers to them. It kept his brain occupied to the point that at least he wasn't dying from boredom.

Well, that was mostly true, but sometimes when Professor Rimbaud drowned on and on for too long, hitting a monotone tone in only ten minutes, he found himself zoning out and spending the remaining time of the lesson staring out the window in a dissociative state.

Then, as days kept passing by in their monotonous way, each one making Dazai wish for the blissful mercy a quick death would bring upon him, the change came in the form of an official e-mail from the school board.

Professor Rimbaud had a heart attack the night before, and considering his unstable condition, his lessons would be taken over by a substitute teacher for the remaining month left of the semester. Most students must've wished for the lessons to be canceled altogether, and get an easy A at the end of the term due to their professor missing, but for once, Dazai felt a flick of interest – he welcomed any type of unexpected change to this boring life at this point, if only temporarily so.