(Missing Me - RJ Helton)
-His POV-
"Congratulations, James! Finally, you graduated." Mom said as she hugged me.
Yes, I'm a soon-to-be architect. After five years of hard-work and roller coaster twists in my life, I can say that I've accomplished something. Thanks to my family, they never gave up on me. I wish she's here 'though. She has a big part of everything I have done. "So, where do you want to celebrate, son?" Dad asked me. Actually, I don't feel like celebrating but for their sake, "Just in some diner in town, dad." I answered him.
"Seriously, you don't want to go out and party with your friends?" Mom asked me then. But the truth is I do not have 'friends' with me here. They're in Manila. "No, mom. I just want to be with you and dad." Mom hugged me again, "that's so sweet of you James. So, to diner then, Rob?" Dad just gave a sly smile and nodded.
We left the auditorium and went to a little diner near our house. That dinner was filled of laughter and talks. After the incident, I got close to them. I felt that they really cared for me. On the other hand, I've changed from being a jock into a geek. Not much of a geek, I just focused the last two years in finishing my course.
Right after dinner, we headed home. As dad parked his car, I saw a familiar face in front of our porch. "Son, isn't that Lindsay?" Mom said as she stepped off from the car. Yes, it was Lindsay, a childhood friend. She lives in the neighborhood.
"James!" She exclaimed as she approached me. I smiled, "How long you've waited?" I asked her. She smiled, "nah, not that long. So how's your graduation?"
"Guys, let's come inside. It's getting cold in here." Mom told as she entered the house. "Mom, we'll just stay here for a while." I told her.
"It's nice. I still can't believe that I'd finished everything on time." She tapped my shoulder. "Of course it would be nice. I'm so proud of you. I'm happy that you're back here and you graduated here. You've missed a lot, you know?" i put an arm around her. "I know that. But I'm sure you'll help me catch up especially now, I am not busy."
"Of course, James, we'll catch up. If I'd known it early that you're in a coma, I would fly to Philippines immediately." There, she said it. I was comatose for two months because of the accident. "Linds, you don't have to do that. I'm here already, alive and whole." She pinched me. "I'm just saying. So, you've moved on now? The first time I saw you since you came back, you're awful and miserable but look at you now, you're smiling."
And right there, it hit me. When I woke up from the coma and found out what happened, I wished that I just died. It felt like my whole world crashed before me. Days after days, I spend it in my room and grieve. And then I decided to continue life and finish architecture.
"There's nothing I could do Lindsay. I have to continue life."
We just hugged after that. I invited her inside the house but she declined it. She said, "Thanks, but no thanks. I have something to do. Congratulations, my soon-to-be architect friend. I'll leave you then."
After a quite long conversation with Lindsay, I went to my room. I reminisced the past two years that happened. Nothing eventful happen. Feels like my life got boring after the accident. But even if I wanted to put spice in my life, I still see her in everything I do. I could not believe that in spite what happened, she's still my inspiration to go on. I can't say it to anyone and I can't find the courage to ask where she is. The only thing, dad said about her was that, "She's okay, son but she doesn't want to see you again." When I heard that, my heart crushed into pieces. SHE LEFT ME. I couldn't talk after that. Breathing has been hard that I don't want to continue doing it.
Few days after I woke up, we went back here in the States. In here, I am million miles away from her. All she left for me was the best times of my life and a broken heart. I cannot blame her for leaving me. I understand that she hated me for almost killing her. Although she didn't say it herself, I know that's the reason why she chose to leave my side. Maybe I am no good to her. Maybe I really don't deserve her. I should feel lucky that, once upon a time, she was once mine.
Two years. It has been two years, but my feelings are still the same. The love still gets stronger as every day goes. Minahal ko sya, mahal ko sya and I know I will still love her.
I took out a pillow from my cabinet. This is the one she gave me on our anniversary. "I love you Moj. Thanks for being there to create wonderful memories with me." Those were the words that were embroidered on it. I hugged this every time I miss her. It felt like she's just with me.I couldn't help but shed a tear. It has been so long since the last time I saw her, hug her and kiss her.
"Do you think of me, Mon?"
I also took the picture puzzle of ours. This is also a gift from her. Her smile here made me go back to the times we're together. We were so happy and in love. But in a snap, it was taken away from me.
"Do you still keep everything I gave to you, My Nadine?"
And lastly, I took my guitar. This is the one she gave me on my birthday. I keep it even though I can't play it anymore. Every time I tried to play a string, I end up crying. But now, holding it like this made me want to sing to her again.
"Everything I want to do is because of you. I wish you're the same with me. But I know it will not happen. You chose to be apart with me but in my heart you're always here beside me. Although it pains a lot not hearing anything from you, I still miss you. I want to be with you again."
And right there, I've decided a thing.
In the morning at breakfast, "Dad, I want to go back to the Philippines."
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Shein
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